That Heart Is So Cold

Part 10

"You didn't even call ! You've been to Yukines place all night when I have been looking for you!"
"I didn't ask you to look for me! And I sure have called you. I called you six times today!"
Levi looked up at me and I didn't know really why I was mad. He was allowed to have a girlfriend it just feelt so wrong.
"Like hell you did!"
I felt in my pocket to show him but..nothing there.
Levi walked past me and picked up a phone on the table.
"So whats this then? Not your phone? Huh?" He said, holding my phone. I swallowed.
"Unlock it" he demanded. Holding it to me.
"No"
"This just proves I'm right. Unlock it"

I snapt the phone out of hes hand and unlocked it.
Eight missed calls.
Six from Levi and two from Hanji.
09:02 09:05 09:07 09:10 09:13 09:16
"I-I didn-"
"I know you didn't. I see clearly you didn't"
"What did you want to say to Yukine?"
"Huh?"
"You called her"
"How do you know?" He stepped closer to me.
"I had her phone. It was on the floor so I picked it up"
"And you still didn't answer !!"
"It wasn't meant to me !! I don't want to get into your weird relationship!"
He snorted. "Weird? Why is it weird?" I blinked.
"You doesn't even take care of her! I haven't even seen you hug and you runned from her to get to me!"
He walked even closer.

"What stupid person goes out after eleven too look after a twenty-six years old man!"
"I was drunk! And you sure as hell didn't stop me!"
"I have no responsibility for you..!!! Why should I care!! Get lost, I don't give a fuck!"
I regretted those words right aftet they left my mouth and we just stood still.
After a few seconds he started to talk again.
"I regret all I did too. Every single part of it."
Every single part of it.
The kiss? That he searched for me?
He meant that to right?
Why can't I just be nice for once!
I saw him close his fist.
"She was right, you are uncaring..."
What?
"I see now."
"Go on and have your weird relationship and keep me out of it"
He said before he walked into the bedroom and locked the door.

I walked into the bedroom and leaned against the wall, feeling something inside of me breake and get up to my throat. Building clumps and making me hard to breath.
Why did I care?
Why did it hurt so much?
So, so much.
And I cried.