Dear Family,
I'm sorry I'm not what you want me to be.
It hurts seeing the failure in me.
Not the golden child, like I was once before.
Just the helpless being, crumpled on the floor.
Living with a smile, plastered on my face.
Knowing that forever, I'll be stuck in last place.
I know I broke your heart Mom, You told me so last night.
And I don't know what I did, but I want to make it right.
I'm evil to you, You said I was born that way,
You could feel it inside me since my very first day.
Your words kill me slowly, from tyhe inside to the out,
Your words slice like knives, your screams and your shouts.
Hide me from my father with his grip like stone,
twisting my arm painfully, stab me to the bone.
Loves me when he's able, He's shown it once or twice.
When his hand is free from bottles, he often is quite nice.
To my siblings, I am sorry, I didnt mean you hate.
I know it's hard for you, but no longer can I wait.
Wait for you to love me, the way I love all you.
It's not easy knowing that you don't love me too.
Wait for me? Don't bother, I'm never coming back.
It's time for all of you to g et your life on track.
Cause I'm done with this now, I've given my last try,
and no more tears will fall, as I spread my wings and fly.
Sincerly,
Me.
P.S ; I'm sorry I was never good enough
