Ι Walĸ Alone..

Good for Something?..No..

I just want to be good at something. I see all of my friends.

They sing, dance, act, cheer, play instruments..etc.

Sure I'm alright at writing poetry, but I don't see that

as a talent. Sure it helps people and it helps me.

I cant put it into words except..

I just want to be good at something..

I want to be proud of myself for something..

I just want others to be proud of me..

Sure, I haven't self harmed since oct. 26th.

And yeah I'm proud..but..It's not enough for me..

Believe me I hate myself for not thinking I'm good at anything..

I just feel hopeless and I sometimes feel like

what I feel isn't allowed to be felt..

I apologize for my existence..

I don't know my self worth

I feel stupid for feeling the way I do.

Just because..I have no right to feel

this way..Sure my dad passed away

But so many others have it worse than I do..

I have no right to hurt emotionally and hurt myself physically..

I have no right to anything..

to being alive even..