Matthew
It's been a whole five months now.
It's not funny anymore Zoë.
Please come back.
I miss you, and I really hope you're okay.
People are starting to loose hope.
Rumors have been spreading by now.
People say you ran away but then you couldn't take it so you killed yourself.
I really hope you're alive and well, I can't handle loosing you for good. Even if I never really had you in the first place.
Your mother isn't doing all too well.
Neither am I.
Was this in any way my fault?
I have been changing a lot. I've stopped drinking and going to parties.
So when you come back you can be so proud of me.
And you will actually want to be around me.
Please tell me you didn't go away so that I wouldn't be around you anymore.
Please.
Zoë
I really really miss you.
But I know that I can't go back yet.
I have to be strong when I get back.
I have to be someone that he will be proud of.
But not just for him for me.
I want to look back on this moment and think to myself, "I did that for myself."
But things are slowly starting to change. I am starting to look at the world and situations I get thrown into differently.
Soon.
a/n: dedicated to: Panda_Wanda
