A Fresh Start ✦ Matthew Espinosa (ON HOLD)

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•Sam's POV•
•Tuesday night: 9:30 p.m.•

Matt and I finished packing and we decided to look online for some apartments.

"I really like this one!" I said pointing at the screen.

"It's nice, it's big and it has three rooms with two bathrooms, I think this just might be the one," Matt said.

"I think so too," I said with a smile on my face.

"I'll call and get some information on it," Matt said as he took out his phone and dialed the number.

"I'll be right back," Matt said as he stepped out of my room.

I looked at apartments to see what I would find, they aren't cheep at all, but with the help of my parents, Matt's parents, Matt, and hopefully me when I find a job then it would hopefully be easier to pay.

In about 10 minutes Matt came back in the room.

"Okay so they do have the apartment that we were looking at available, we just have to go to the office and talk face to face about it and hopefully get it," Matt said as he sat on the bed next to me.

"Sounds good, I'm so happy that we're leaving tomorrow," I said as I shut the laptop and laid down.

"Me too trust me, you'll like my friends too," Matt said as he put the laptop on my counter.

"I hope they like me," I said as Matt sat up against the headboard.

"They will, you're an amazing girl you've got nothing to worry about."

"I hope so," I laughed.

We talked for a bit until it was time for Matt to go.

"Alright, well we need our sleep, our flight is at 12:45 so I'll come pick you up at 10."

"Okay, I'll walk you out," I said as I got out of the bed.

Matt walked out of my room and I followed.

"Okay this is my stop," Matt chucked.

"Goodnight Matthew, see you tomorrow morning," I said as I opened the door.

"Goodnight Sam, be ready in the morning we can't waste time," Matt said as he stepped outside.

"No promises," I laughed as we hugged.

"Well try your best." We pulled apart from the hug and Matt started to walk towards his car.

"I'll do my best."

Once he got in his car and drove off I closed the door and locked it.

I got some water and made my way upstairs until I heard the doorbell ring.

I looked at the time and it was already 10, I thought that maybe it was my parents back from their business dinner but their car wasn't in the drive way.

I opened to door to see Chase.

"Please leave," I said as he tried to get in but I placed my hands on his chest to keep him out.

"Sam please, I'm sorry about the other night, please don't leave," Chase said as he grabbed my hand.

I snapped my hand back from him.

"Please don't touch me and go, nothing you're going to say is going to make me stay."

"Sam please, I really do regret what I did to you. From cheating on you and trying to...I can't even believe I tried to do that to you," Chase said.

"Well you did, just go please," I said as I tried to close the door but he stopped me from doing so.

"I was drunk, I don't know what I was thinking. Sam please," his eyes were getting watery as he spoke to me.

"It really is best if you leave, you're making this too hard," I said.

It all happened so fast, he grabbed a hold of my waist pulling me towards him and kissed me with so much force.

I couldn't help but cry because I knew that as much I hated him I still loved him.

"You can't tell me you still don't feel it," Chase said resting his forehead on mine.

I just stayed quiet not saying a word.

"I still love you Sam, and I know you still do too," Chase mumbled to me.

"Please, just got," I said as his hands were cupping my cheeks and he whipped my tear away as I kept my eyes closed.

"I can't leave you, I'm really sorry Sam please forgive me."

"I can't it's not easy," I said.

"I know you still love me Sam, I still love you and I regret everything I put you through."

He kissed me once more and I let him so he could get it out of his system. I kissed him back knowing it would be the last time I ever felt his lips against mine.

"I'm sorry," he mumbled as we separated.

He took one last look at me as I whipped away my tear and he walked off.

"I do still love you" I said to myself as I saw him walk away into his car.

I shut the door and locked it and walked up to my room closing the door behind me I got in bed and silently cried to myself. I don't understand how I can hate someone so much but still love them. I cried myself to sleep with Chase being my last thoughts.

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