Irresistable {Gerard Way fanfic}

Chapter Six

"Helena, are you listening?" Lexi snaps me out of my own world I've been trying to create in my mind. A place where I can go when I feel lonely.

It's been a week since the mishap in Gerard's car and I've been completely ignoring him ever since. I can't help that I feel so dumb for thinking of him in such a way.

Adam forgave me for ditching out on coming over to fool around that night without asking questions. He's leaving for Europe tomorrow and today is his last day with me until a month.

I can't trust myself with what may happen in that month or even him. Will he find another? Leave me be? What if something goes wrong on that trip and he ends up dying? Or falling ill? Or-

"Helena!" Lexi says again.

"Sorry," I look down at my desk, trying to avoid eye contact with Gerard. "I was just thinking," yeah, I say to myself about your almost sexual contact with your own teacher.

"Have you even been alive throughout the whole seventh bell? I feel like I'm talking to a dead person," Lex pesters.

I laugh and apologize. "Sorry, what did you want to tell me?" My laugh catches the attention of everyone in class and they all look back at me. Gerard is grading papers but notices my laughing as well. He looks up at me but when he sees I'm not pleased with him, he looks back down.

"Della invited us to go shopping and spend a girl's day Saturday," Lexi whispers.

Usually, I would say something like "I can't" or "already busy" but since Adam will be gone for a whole month, I'll have nothing to do.

I look up again at Gerard, who has finished grading papers and put them away. He catches me looking at him and smiles but I make no effort in having eye contact with him. It's just too weird.

"So.. Are you going to say yes or no or just continue to stare at Mr. Way," Lexi snaps her fingers in my face and Gerard hears. Nobody else but Gerard, who must've been listening to our conversation because when I look at him, he winks at me. Winks. What does it mean? I'm all confused. First, he's making out with Miss. Stryder, then he's basically saying I'm not his type, and now he's winking at me?

I lay my head on my desk while wrapping my arms to shield my face and sigh. "Yes, I'll try to make it," I mumble.

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As soon as the bell rings, everyone exits the class, immediately. I try to do the same but instead, all of my stuff fumbles to the ground and I'm left by myself with Gerard in his class room to pick it all up. I begin go mumble a bunch of cuss words as I start by grabbing my binders.

When I look up, I see Gerard hovering over me with the rest of my books, folders, and binders. I still ignore eye contact with him retrieved my stuff. I look at his lips that form a smile and I think about the night in the car.

"Uh, thanks," I say while shuffling away from him. He grabs my waist and holds me while grinning. Wide-eyed, I'm forced to look at Gerard's hazel eyes. The same colored hazel eyes that I was so attracted to in my dreams. But how? I've never seen him in my life. The only time I decide to look into his eyes, I can't stop.

Gerard is still holding me and pulling me closer to him until my books and stuff are the only things in the way between us. I finally find the strength to look away from him and close my eyes but he just chuckles and sighs.

"You've barely even said two words to me this whole week, Helena. What's bother you?" Gerard asks, still not letting me go.

I want to fight free from him but then again, I want to stay like this. Whenever he touches me, I feel fire building up inside of me and my heart beats fast and the electricity get even more powerful.

"I just don't understand," I admit while closing my eyes still. "I don't."

"What don't you get?" Gerard asks.

"How you can touch me and make me feel this way. It's so confusing." I turn around and place my stuff on the nearest desk. Turning back around, I wrap my arms around his neck and bury my head in his chest. I want to cry because I'm so confused and frustrated with him but instead, I stand there, being held by him.

"What do you mean, Helena? You're my student."

"Then why are your arms around my waist?"

"Why are your arms around my neck?" Gerard chuckles and let's me go.

I grab my stuff and groan at him. I can't do this right now. I can't think of him and be with Adam. It's basically cheating without really doing it. I want them both. I know that I want them. I know that Adam wants me. It's if Gerard does or not.

As I exit, I hear Gerard say, "Helena, wait!"

I look at him with squinted eyes of disgust and say, "Either you want me or you don't."

And with that, I leave.

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Later that night, I hop into the shower and make it long and steamy. My head is filled with three men, my dad, Adam, and Gerard. Mainly Gerard and how he could hold me and look into my eyes but deny me. I think about his hazel eyes and how they perfectly fit the description of the pair in my dream. I think about his hot breath against my ear that night in the car. I don't understand any of it. I don't think I ever will.

After 10 minutes, I get out of the shower and wrap myself with a towel and blow dry my hair. Mom and Lewis are out for dinner again so I'm left by myself until about 10 p.m. I'm starting to get worried that they're falling her each other. Not after dad.

As soon as I enter my room, I'm pulled by a pair of strong arms and and a hand is held over my mouth. I scream and kick, trying to release myself but it's not use. Who would want to hurt me? How did he get in my room? Why was he doing this. I finally bite the hand of the person holding me which forces him to release me.

"Goddamn, babe!" I hear the familiar voice say. "It's just me."

I turn around and I'm relieved to see its only Adam. My panting stops and my heart beat goes back to its regular state. I sigh in relief and out my palm on my forehead.

Adam removes my hand and brings me into a long, deep kiss. The spark between us is present and I savor his taste for the last time in a month. I'll miss him. When our mouths part back from each other, I see a smile on his face.

"You about gave me a heart attack," I say with relief and fright. But staring into Adam's electric blue eyes always seem to calm me down.

"Almost never killed anyone," he winks and kisses me again. Pushing me on the bed, Adam gets on top of me and starts kissing my neck. My back arches when he whispers into my ear, "I wanna make you have to take another shower,"

"How do you know if my mom is home or not?" I grin at him.

"She isn't," Adam replies while pulling the covers over us and taking off my towel. With my body exposed, his fingers linger down my body and begins to explore the inside of me with his middle finger. I moan at the his touch and close me eyes. After a while, Adam substitutes his finger for something bigger. Moving up on my body, he pushes himself inside me, making me moan louder and dig my nails into his back. I kiss him more and more until my phone goes off, making a super loud noise.

Adam groans and grunts until getting off me. I cover myself with the white blanket and retrieve my phone from my desk.

"Hello?" I say into the phone with a number I've never seen before.

"Helena," I hear Gerard's voice say.