Never did she think she would find someone that mattered that much. Especially not one as great as him. Everything was perfect. She found a reason to wake up with a smile. A reason to live. Sure she had her friends, but they never seemed to understand what pain she went through. When he came, it went away. His love replaced all of her insecurities and sadness with an overwhelming hopeful and optimistic feelings.
He was her first kiss, date, real relationship, but he became a new feeling of self loathing and depression just as quickly as he made everything else disappear. As the relationship dragged on, be brought her down whether it was intentional or not. He purposely made her feel jealous and ugly. He made her feel invisible. He made her hate herself for leaving her heart so vulnerable for him.
He became more distant and she cried herself to sleep wondering what she did wrong. Her friends told her that she didn't need any of this and she needed to break up, but she wouldn't listen to them.
The day came where she found he found love not in her anymore, but in other girls. She talked to him to make sure it wasn't true, but it was. He broke up with her. She cried thinking it was all her fault.
He told her he didn't want to lose her as an individual and wanted to stay friends.
That's almost like saying,
"The dog is dead, but we can still keep it."
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Hiya strangers! So even though there's no rumor of it swimming around saying it, I'm in fact single as of Tuesday. Now don't give me your pity, but its true. All of this chapter is in fact.. So yeah, this sucks. I'll be alright in time though, so its all good in Ally's world. I think what really broke my heart wasn't the fact he did cheat, it was seeing them the way we used to be with each other. Other than that its pretty okay.
Oh who am I kidding? I'm going through hell. I feel sick and then I have the stress of AP classes to deal with. Our first month was going to be the 30th when I return to school from Thanksgiving break and I'm not doing very well.. This sucks.
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Late Night Thoughts
RandomThis is mostly stories that are used rant without directly ranting. It makes me feel much better so I don't really care that no one reads this. As long as I'm happy, nothing else matters. (That's a total lie. I'm way more caring than I should be.)
