Between Me & You - n.r.

Chapter 15

Hailee's POV

I was standing on the sidewalk outside the police station watching as Nick discussed his sentence with some cops. He was going to juvie. And then jail after that. 

Today it was cold. The weather is reflecting the day I'm having. At least we're on the same page. 

I pull my jacket tighter around me as I watch Nick make his way toward me. 

"Hey", he says as if he isn't about to do his time for dealing drugs. 

"Hi", I reply. 

"So I'm about to go", Nick says. The pain is only shown in his eyes. I think he's trying to stay strong and make it easier for me. As if I straight face will make this better.

"When will I see you again?", I ask.

"I don't know", is the answer I get and I'm less than satisfied.

The cold wind blows pieces of my hair into my face. Nick reaches out and tucks the hair behind my ear. 

"So, I guess this is goodbye", I say.

"No", Nick said. "This is just 'see you later'. I won't be in there forever."

"That's not good enough, Nick. I'm going to graduate. I'm going to go to medical school. I might not even be here when you get out."

"So you are going into medicine?", he says, getting off topic. 

I smirk. "Yeah. I recently found some inspiration, if you will."

"You'll be a great doctor, Hailee."

"I hope so."

"Robinson, hurry it up. We need to get going!", the cop yells. 

"You should go", I say, looking at the ground.

"I have something to give you first", Nick says. He reaches into his jacket pocket and pulls out a piece of paper. He hands it to me. 

"What is this?", I ask.

"It's everything I didn't say", he answers. 

Nick turns around and slowly starts making his way to the police who are waiting for him. He'll get in that police car and he'll be gone. 

He stops though and he turns around to face me. His face is a puzzle of everything he must be feeling; fear, anger, sadness, pain... But his smile says something I've never seen on his face before. Love.

"Don't forget me", he says. 

"I could never", I reply. A tear slides down my cheek as I watch his smile grow wider.

Nick gets in the car, on his way to a future that is far from bright and I can't help but feel scared for him. And me. And everything we'll be missing together. 

The car drives away and I stand there, outside the police station, and I let the tears fall. They fall and fall and I have no motivation to make them stop. 

My hands clench into fists and I feel the crumple of paper in my hand. 

I look down to see the paper that Nick had given me and I immediately unfold it. 

"It's everything I didn't say."

I don't know what that's supposed to mean. 

On the paper is a list of songs. The first is one I recognize: Here With Me by The Killers. 

I know the second one too. And the third one. I know all these songs. They were songs I listened too with Nick. 

The title on the top of the page clarifies everything : Everything I didn't Say. And I realize that in every song is a message meant just for me. One that he could only say to me through words that weren't his own. 

At the bottom of the page is a note.

This is where I leave you -Nick

I start to cry again and I clutch the piece of paper to my chest. 

In that moment, I know that he might not be with me ever again, but this is something that's between us. The end to an epic story. Or maybe just the beginning.

There's no way for me to know. 

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Later that day, I sit in my room on the floor listening to every song on the list again. 

I make it to the end, but the last song is one I don't know. 

Too Much Time by John Vanderslice.

Curious, I look up the song and play it.

I immediately fall in with this song and I am amazed at how well Nick actually knew me. 

Stone by stone

I ended here all alone

And brick by brick
I woke myself from happiness

I rested my back against the wall and closed my eyes. I listened and let myself get lost in the message that Nick was giving me through this song. 

Too much time gone by

And I can't find you if I try

The tears threaten to fall again. I can't find you if I try. Nick was saying goodbye. 

I fell asleep there on the cold floor, listening to John Vanderslice tell me how too much time had gone by. 

Too much time gone by 

And I can't find you if I try

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Hey readers!

Hope you liked this one. Don't worry, the story isn't over yet.

It's movie suggestion time! Yesterday, I watched 2 movies that were both amazing.

1. Somewhere In Time (1980) with Christopher Reeve and Jane Seymour. This movie is lovely and kind of heartbreaking. If you're in the mood to cry, this is a good one to watch.
2. The Shawshank Redemption (1994) with Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman. This movie is genius. Seriously, genius. Everyone who's seen it will tell you how good it is. See it. That's all.

Thanks for reading guys! There's more to come ::

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