"Are you still my princess?"
"Yes, why wouldn't I be?"
"You seem distant today"
"When?"
"Today"
"At what point today?"
"When we started talking"
"Well, yeah, I am distant"
"I don't know what I'll do when I won't be your princess anymore. I don't want things to change"
I can't handle change, especially when it has to do with him. It'll always be him but it'll never work. We always argue. But when it's good, it's good. But the bad over weighs the good sometimes and I need to leave but I can't. I just can't. He means too much to me.
It's alright, I get to leave a year early. Might as well get away from the emotional ties.
But dear god, I fucking love him and I hate myself for it. He's not shit but I treat him like my world.
He's an asshole, I'm not good enough, it's just shouldn't work between us. But some how it does and I don't know why.
But I hate myself. I want to be prettier and more like-able. But I'm not, and it's killing me inside. I want to leave so bad but I can't. It wouldn't be right.
But I also love her. I barely knew her but I love her. For the short time we were together.
"Who do you love?" I asked.
"No one"
"Oh"
And I'll never ask it again. She doesn't need to know.
