She Resides In Me {Completed}

Chapter - 26 (AGONIES OF LOVE)

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On the isolated street :
Nandini was walking on the road ..lifelessly..manik's words were ringing in her mind..but still not a single drop of tear escaped from her eyes...she was totally shattered within herself..nothing was left inside her soul..she felt like a butcher cut her in pieces mercilessly.. And she is in a condition where she can't even yell in pain..
She came towards the cliff..and stand on the edge of it..she was totally out of her senses..she took one step ahead but held it in air...
Such situations are very fragile..when a pure heart receives betrayal..nothing can describe what that heart goes through...
She took her step back and looked upwards...
Nandini : "kyu?..sirf ek sawal..kyu?..".. She said in a low tone..looking upwards.. But soon all her patience level crossed..and she fell down on the ground..
Suddenly it start raining..in the chilly weather..she was totally drenched..and a very cold wind was blowing..but she was not shivering...she was totally lost..she had never imagined that her own sister can cheat on her..she had never thought..that the person whom she is considering as god is actually a devil in disguise...
She was in that state..where she lost all her sanity..the person whom she had considered as her savior was actually her culprit..
Nandini : " kyu manik?..kyu aaliya?..kis gunaah ki saza mujhe tum dono ne di?.."..she said totally blank out..her mind and heart was not able to accept what she had witnessed sometime back..
Just then..aaliya came on the cliff in her car..she saw Nandini there..and instantly came outside..she came towards Nandini..and bent down beside her..Nandini didn't looked at her...she placed her hand on her shoulder..and now Nandini looked in her side..
Aaliya : "Nandini..please chalo yahan se..tumhe thand lag jaegi.."..she said in concerned tone..and Nandini looked at her with cold expression..she tried to make Nandini stand ..
Nandini : " tumhe sach mei meri parwah ho rahi hai..ya tum bhi koi natak karhi ho?",..she asked with a cold tone..and aaliya was hurt..with her that tone...
Nandini was one of them..who always trust anyone so easily...she was the one for whom trust means a lot..but today her trust was broke..and with that intensity ..that now she won't be able to trust anyone back..she will see every other person with doubtful eyes...
Aaliya : "Nandini mai toh bas...".. But before she could complete..Nandini gave a weak smile to her...
Nandini : " majak karhi thi..ghar chale?..."..her sudden statement left aaliya speechless.. THEY LOST NANDINI.. only this was running in her mind..while Nandini stood up and start walking...
Aaliya : "kuch kahogi nhi?".. She said as she wasn't able to take Nandini's silence more...
Nandini turned around and looked at her...
Nandini : " ghar chale?"...she said still in her calm voice..and walked towards the car.. And sat down inside it..aaliya was speechless..but she also sat back in the car..and drove back to their home...throughout the journey..Nandini was quiet..and was looking outside...
Nandini's Room :
Nandini came inside her room without saying anything to aaliya..while aaliya had no guts to face Nandini..her cold behavior was making her suffer...
Its a saying that silence speaks louder than words..and here nandini's silence speaking a lot..if there would be anyone else in place of Nandini..then till now that person would have cursed those two badly..may be abused also..but Nandini..she is different..she is love..she can't curse them..she can't abuse then..because she once had loved them..but her silence will make them suffer..her unsaid words will never let those two in peace...
Nandini came towards her bed..And saw her and aaliya's pic on the side table..she caressed the frame with her soft hands..still her eyes were only showering love to that picture..a weak smile was on her lips..she is not saying anything but her eyes are saying everything.. But today she will make them shut..she will make her eyes learn ..how to hide feelings..
Just then..her phone start ringing..and she saw the caller Id..it was RAHUL JAYKAR ..RJ..she placed the pic back and picked up the phone..
Nandini : "hello..".. She said in little low tone...
RJ : " hi..Nandini..RJ here..Woh I called you because you said you will send all the music made by Manik...but you didn't send yet..so I called to ask.."..he said while he was setting the chords of his guitar...
Just when she heard manik's name ..she went back to memory lane..all his filthy words start ringing in her ears..and she shut her eyes tightly..
RJ : "hello..Nandini..you there?..hello.."..he said as there was no response from other side...
Nandini : her trance broke down by his voice "Woh..am sorry..Han..actually.. I..will..".. She was looking for words and RJ was listening her with a confused expression..she stopped and shut her eyes again...
RJ : " are you okay?.."..he asked in a little concerned manner...
Nandini : she opened her eyes and replied "am fine ..I will send all the music videos to you today..but never disclose this to ..manik..",. She said his name after a small pause..
RJ : " okay! ..but am feeling some change in your voice..I mean..in morning you were very happy..and right now you are sounding low.."..he said sensing the pain In her voice..
Nandini smiled sarcastically after listening him..but then she replied...
Nandini : "change is a part of nature..and we should accept it..no matter how difficult the change is..but it's better if you accept it ...".. She said totally lost in her thoughts.. RJ can sense her pain..but he was confuse..but before he could ask anything further..she disconnected the call..
RJ : " there was something in her voice..like some kind of pain..something is surely wrong with her..I hope she can able to accept the change..she was talking about..."...he said looking at the pic of Nandini in his laptop..which was placed on his bed...
Rahul jaykar the greatest musician ..actually fell for Nandini 9 months back..not after watching her..but after listening her voice..after reading her poems..yes! He was in love with her..but when today he met with Nandini..in just few minutes convo he figured out that ..she is in love with manik..and this was also the reason for which he agreed to launch manik...in place of Nandini..
(Background music) :
Ho..yaara..
Yaara..
Ho..yaara..
Ishq ro raha hai palkon pe
Hai rooh bheegi har jagah se
Tu bedardi jaane na
(Nandini came towards the mirror..and there was a pink note on it..it was a reminder..that ask manik to have his medicines before sleeping...she picked that note out of mirror..and caressed it..then she came back towards the bed...)
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil toote toh
Jaane na jodiyaa
(She picked up the teddy from her bed..and hugged it very tightly..still there was no tears..but her heart was bleeding..she hugged the teddy as if she was assuming it to be manik...she then placed it back on the bed..and moved toward the couch..and opened her laptop..but the wallpaper on her desktop increased her pain more..the wallpaper was of manik..aaliya..Nandini ...)
Mera dard na tu pehchaane
Jinu chot lage ah jaane
Mera dard na tu pehchaane
Jinu chot lage ah jaane
Ki paaya mol mere ishq da...
(She touched his face..his smiling face..then aaliya's face..her eyes were only depicting pain and enormous love for them..her hands start shivering badly.. And just then she recalled how aaliya used to hold nandini's hand..whenever it used to shiver..aaliya always rub her palm..Nandini saw her palm.. And touched it with her other hand..)
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
(She Traced the lines on her hands..she tightly closed her hands making a fist..and also shut her eyes for some seconds..after some time.. She opened her eyes and her fist as well..then she for the last time looked at the wallpaper...after that she opened her library and attached all the videos of manik..and sent it to RJ...)
Nandini : "I wanted to see you at heights.. And even today I want that.. I can never HATE YOU manik..never ever...".,. She said looking at his pic in her laptop..then she shut down it..but not before booking tickets to Mumbai..
Nandini : " Ab mai yahan nhi reh sakti..I have to go far away from here.."...she thought and went yo pack her stuffs...
It was the darkest night of her life...in morning it was her brightest day..and now her life had turned totally a 360 degree turn...she have no words left with her..the ever so talkative Nandini has adopted silence..and what can be worse than this...
She slept after fighting biggest battle inside her heart...
Living area of Nandini's house :
Nandini was about to leave for Mumbai..it took a lot of efforts to convince her parents her brother rishab..to let her go..she lied that she wants to pursue her career that's why she is leaving..everyone was shocked with her sudden decision ...as she didn't told anyone about her plans.. But somehow she managed to convince everyone..she also asked not to drop her to airport as she can't bid bye to them..they agreed to her..and told her her to take care of herself..but they didn't know that she is going for forever and she won't come back again..all this was witnessed by aaliya..she knew why Nandini was going..but unfortunately she even lost that right to stop her sister..her best friend..she wasn't able to make eyes contact with Nandini..
Nandini saw aaliya standing In the corner quietly..she herself came towards her..aaliya was looking downwards..so Nandini placed her hand on her cheeks..and now aaliya looked at her...
Nandini : "take care...".. She said with a weak smile..with no emotion in her eyes..aaliya was badly hurt by Nandini's behavior.. She was about to hug Nandini but Nandini moved back..leaving aaliya dejected...
Nandini : " bye.."...she said and looked at aaliya for the last time..and left the house after hugging rishabh and her parents...
Aaliya ran upstairs crying badly..just after Nandini left the house..she called someone after coming to her room..and then saw her and Nandini's picture.. She cried looking at the pic..and hugged it tightly...
Aaliya : "mujhe maafi mangne ka toh mauka deti ...I lost you Nandini..I lost my sis..I lost everything.."..she said while hugging the pic...
People never realize the worth of a person in their presence ..they actually realize their real worth when those people leave them..the ones who truly love you..can never curse you..can never punish you for the sins you did..but their that silence..never let you in peace..when a person talks in anger..that one easily can spit out everything..but the one who drink back all the anger and pain..and don't say a single word against you..is truly in love with you..
Here Nandini quietly walked out of aaliya's and manik's life..because she can't let dirt fall on her pure love which she do...her love for them is purest..and she can't let any dirt fall on it..so she choose to be quiet...HER LOVE IS GREAT..bow down to her LOVE..
Airport :
Nandini was sitting on the chair..looking at the guitar key chain ..which manik gave to her on their friendship day..when they both became friends..she placed it back in her back..and just when she heard the announcement of her flight.. She stood up with her luggage..and turned around to leave...but stopped in mid when she heard a familiar voice...
"Mujhe chorkar jaa rahi hai ..angel...",..she turned around after listening the voice..and when she turned around she found mukti..standing there with her luggage...
Nandini : " mukti?.."..she said and mukti came towards her...
Mukti : "Han mukti..your alarm..so you were going ..leaving your soul sis..mujhe chorkar jaa rahi thi...".. She complaint..and Nandini looked at her in disbelief...
Nandini : " nahi..mukti.. Mai toh bas..."..but before she could complete..mukti hugged her tightly...
Mukti : "we are soul sisters angel..we share DIL KA RISHTA...and you were going leaving this relation behind...without even telling me..itna paraya kar diya tune...".. She said still hugging her..
Nandini : " tujhse door jaa he nahi sakti mai..."...she said hugging her more tightly...
Mukti : "toh bas...am coming with you..because I can't stay away from my angel..chale..."... She said and picked her luggage..Nandini stopped her...
Nandini : " nahi..mukti.. You ..."..before she could complete mukti shushed her...
Mukti : "kuch nhi bolegi Ab tu..we need to catch flight..chal jaldi..last minute booking ki hai Maine..chal Ab..."... She said and Nandini rest her case...
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Nandini : " but tu yaha kese aayi?.."..she asked after sitting on the window seat...while mukti tied her seat belt...
Then mukti looked at her..there were question in them..
Mukti : "actually aaliya called me in morning..that time I was on my way to meet you ..aaj subah he aayi thi mai..but when aaliya told me everything..which happened last night..and how you are about to leave..I directly came here..and booked my tickets.."... She said looking at Nandini..while she gave mukti a weak smile...and start looking outside...
Mukti looked at her with helpless eyes..while nandini was looking outside the window..
Mukti : "mujh mei toh himmat he nahi hai..yeh bhi kehne ki ..ki nandini sab theek ho jaega..am feeling so helpless angel..but i promise..this time..i won't let them break you..i won't let them.."...she thought and a tear escaped from her eyes..but she wiped them off instantly..
(BACKGROUND MUSIC)
Ho ik tujhpe tha bharosa
Tu zubaan se phir gaya
Mujhpe toh aasmaan sa
Koi jaise gir gaya
Tere kadmon mein tha rakha
Maine yeh jahaan
Thukraya tune mujhko
Jaon main kahan..
(Nandini recalled how she submit her dignity to manik..and then how he said that it was all his plan..he was with her only for the bet and revenge..she recalled how manik came back to her..totally in shattered state and after witnessing his pain..she forgave him instantly..and forgot all her pain..she trusted him twice..and he broke her so badly that she can never be able to gather her pieces...)
Meri samajh na kuch bhi aave
Meri jaan chali na jaave
Meri samajh na kuch bhi aave
Meri jaan chali na jaave
Ik tere baad jeena hai sazaa..
(she isn't able to figure out..where she is going and how will she be able to forget him..how will she able to live without his sweet talks..how she be able to forget all mishap happened..will she really be able to survive...)
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
(She recalled everything together..but still not a single drop of tear fell down from her eyes..don't know which kind of storm was in her heart..which she wasn't able to take it out..)
Raahon mein chalte chalte
Badlaa kyun raasta
Ik pal mein de gaya tu
Sadiyon ka faasla
Sapnon ka mere manzar
Daraaron se bhara
Kuch hai jo mere hathon ki
Lakeeron se gira..
(she recalled how when she came to malhotra mansion and witnessed manik's true face..how she came to know about aaliya's betrayal..how her world crashes down in front of her eyes..she looked at her palm..and traced the lines on it..as if she wants to know..what else is written in them..)
Rab wohi yaar milaave
Jo chaadh ke kadey na jaave
Rab wohi yaar milaave
Jo chaadh ke kadey na jaave
Sajnaa da aye vi chodha hai bura...
(She prayed silently to her aiyappa..that no one in this whole world goes through the pain..she is going through..every single person who loves truly..may receive true love in return..not betrayal..she being a pure soul..prayed for every lovers well being..)
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil kaanch sa
Dil kaanch sa
Todiyaa..
Dil toote toh
Jaane na jodiyaa...
(she was looking outside and everything went in the reverse gear..in front of her eyes..it started with how yesterday she saw manik's real face..then she spent her best time with manik..then how manik confessed his feelings..then she witnessed the truth in canteen..then manik's shattered state..then manik left her for 7 months..then how they were happy being friends..then that day when manik came to her house and sang song..then that day when manik became her friend..then how she saved him from mahira..then her first day in college..where she fell in manik's arms,..everything ran in reverse gear and she shut her eyes tightly..)
Nandini : "mai ja rahi hu manik..tumse door..is shehr se door..par tumhari yaadon se door nahi ja paungi..aaj bhi yehe dua karungi ki..tum hamesha khush raho..aur tumhara har sapna pura ho..",..she still prayed for him with closed eyes..and she is gone far away from them..
When we are hurt..we either broke down or choose to be strong..here nandini choose to be strong..and she went far away from the people who snatched her believe from love..relationships..friendship..but still she prayed for their well being..she didn't cursed them..she didn't uttered even a single word against them..or bad about them.,.because she truly and purely LOVE them..and her love is not that much weak..that a pair of wind can fall it apart..her love is not her weakness..her love is her strength..she is not weak..she is very strong..despite of getting betrayed in the hands of her love..she is standing..and walking with full dignity and grace..
She gave manik a second chance..when he came to her after 7 months..totally shattered and lost..without even thinking twice..she opened her arms and welcomed him back in her life..forgetting all the pain she suffer without him or because of him..in those months..but Manik wasn't worthy enough..he played with her pure heart..used her..crushed her like a tissue paper and threw her in bin..and still that girl..became his light..even though she went far away from him..but before going she made his dream come true..his dream of next singing star..but HE LOST HER..SHE LOST HERSELF..