You're amazing, Phil

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Phil's pov

I was sitting, all alone in a dark room, with no walls, it just went on and on. I was very confused, about where I was, why I was here, and how I got here. There was doors in the wallless room. The first door was white, with golden trime there was a small window on it. The second was wooden and there was a large window on it.

I peeked into the door with gold trim, and all I saw was a blinding white light.

I peeked into the wooden door, and there was bright red and blue lights washing out a perfect night sky.

I knew the wooden one was a window into reality, so I sat down in front of it to watch what was going on. I could see nothing but the sky until the window started to move, into a white area.

There where two men and a bunch of medical equipment, and I soon made it out to be an ambulance.

All the things I had done, all the things everybody else had done, washed over me. I had killed myself.

Why where they trying to save me? I didn't have anyone that cared about me truly, except my mother, but she wouldn't have the strength to overcome my father.

A tall man's shadow crept up behind me. I swung around quickly, only to realise that the tall man was me. An exact replica of me.

"But Philly," he said. "What about Daniel?"

"He doesn't care." I said very bluntly. "He never did."

"That, Philly is where your wrong."

He snapped his fingers and suddenly I could hear everything that was going on.

"Stay with us Phil." The man next to me said. The other went to shut the back door, but there was a sudden outburst.

"WAIT! Is he okay?! Can I ride with you?! Please?!?!" A familiar voice said.

"What did I tell you?" The man said.

"Why he there?" I asked half horrified. He wasn't supposed to be here. He wasn't going to save me again.

"I have no idea." The man said.

I then figured out what the other door did. It gave me peace. It gave me the ending I had been waiting for. Eternal sleep. Sweet death.

I had no hesitation getting up and grabbing for the door knob.

"Wait" The man said. "What about him?"

"All I'm going to make him do is worry." I told him. "He will give up on me. Leave me. Why wait for that when I can end it now and spare the pain?" I said turning the knob.

"Please, stay for him." He said "He will not give up on you."

"HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT? You're just another voice in my already CRAZY brain!" I was crying alot now. "You don't know ANYTHING!"

"Philly calm down, I promise I speak the tru-"

"NO! You're LYING! NO ONE especially Dan cares about me!"

"Why do you you listen to the voice that tells you youre ugly, you're stupid, you're nothing, and not me?"

I released the door knob and dropped my hand to my side. All the weight of the word crashed down on me, and collapsed. I sobbed for a while, until I heard the people in reality say, "Oh Lord, that boy from before is following us."

My head lifted quickly. The man from before was gone. I was alone again. But with him, I wouldn't be alone.

I slowly got up, and walked up to the door and put my hand on the door knob. I looked back at the other door, and made my mind up for sure.

I was going to stay for him.

I turned back to the door and my shaky hand started to turn the door knob.

I'm coming Dan.

A/N

Sorry for not updating on Wednesday. And then not making it up on Thursday, and Friday. I'm not going to update again tonight sorry, I will update twice tomorrow though.

Stay chipper my chipmunks!

~kitten