here goes nothing..

My ghost where did you go?

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I've gotten so used to you that every time I lie in my bed at night forget you're not there.
I miss you so much.
I miss rolling over and just knowing your existence was there.
As you wrap your arm around me and make me feel safe in your arms.
When people ask me where I live I got so used to being with you I almost said "in his heart." But only to find out I wasn't in your heart.
I wasn't even the dirt under your fingernails.
Not even the oxygen you breathe.
Knowing you'll never be back kills me.
But so does a gun.
-tionna