here goes nothing..

11:11

It's crazy that you're my 11:11 wish.
It's crazy how I'm constantly thinking about you..
"I don't want you."
"I don't need you."
I keep whispering as the time rolls by.
11:11 comes around and suddenly I wish for you.
But I don't want you
And I don't need you!
Maybe I do want you..
Except I'm too afraid to tell you because I'm too afraid.
I'm afraid of rejection..
I'm afraid of the daily conception.
Why date you when you're not really mine.
My mind is crazy thinking I don't need you.
But my heart is another thing..
I need you..
But no you don't.
My mind whispers.
I'm so confused.
Do you want me?
Of course not.. Nobody wants me.
My mind is a scary place..
My heart is wrong.
I don't need him..
Yet i still want him.