Taraji And Terrence: The Secret

Recovery...

-next morning-

Terrence POV

The next morning i found myself asleep in the hospital chair in tarajis room. i have no idea how i got over there...she must've kicked me out of the bed. I looked over at her and she seemed like she was awake. I got up and slowly walked over around the bed to her. She was awake...fully awake..shaking and crying. "Baby..did you sleep last night?" i asked her. she didn't respond and looked at me. I sighed. Then the nurse came in. "Good morning terrence..did she sleep well?" she asked. "She didn't sleep at all..and she hasn't spoken" i said. "oh my. She's in deep depression." said the nurse. "It may cure over time" she said. "It's time to excersize her muscles..so she can gain her strength back" said the nurse smiling. She walked over to help her up. And i tried to help too, but she kept trying to hide and avoid me. I followed them down to the gym. The nurse tried to get taraji to lift up a small weight..but she couldn't even do it...she didn't do anything...she just laid there crying..and wouldn't say a word. I felt so terrible for her. Her body completely covered in bruises..and she refused to let anyone know what exactly happened that caused them. I wanted my girl back to normal...and i wasn't gonna give up until she is. The nurse tried to get her to do more things..but taraji just either panicked..or cried...or other times she tried she was too weak to do it. I felt terrible. Then breyshere and jussie came to the hospital and found me in the gym. "Hey taraji" said jussie. "How are you feeling?" he asked. She just ignored him..and was shaking more than ever. "What's wrong with her....why isn't she saying anything..and she looks like she haven't gotten much sleep" said bryshere. "They say she's in deep depression...she won't eat, sleep, talk, nothing" i told them. "Oh my god" said breyshere. Jussie leaned in to hug her..but she backed away as if she didn't know him. "The nurse says we kinda gotta earn her trust again slowly..she's too fragile now" i told them. They shed tears which made me shed them too. "We'll try again tomorrow" said the nurse. We all nodded. "Now lets try getting her to eat something" said the nurse, leading us to the food court. She gently sat taraji down in a chair and went to go get something for her to eat. She brought the food and sat in on the table in front of taraji. "I have some work to do...but try to get her to eat something...don't force it. And if she doesn't eat that cut up an apple for her to try" she said leaving. I walked over to taraji and kneeled down beside the chair she was in. "You hungry baby?" I said gently and smiled at her. She moved in her seat with a terrified look on her face and shook her head...indicating no. "Wanna taste some of this?" said jussie showing her the food. She looked at him and shook her head again. Ugh...she didnt want it. I went and got a knife and cut a half of an apple at the table taraji was sitting at. I took the rest of the half back to the other table...when i heard jussie and breyshere yelling "no taraji don't do it put it down!" i turned around and saw taraji had the knife in her hand. I rushed over and lifted her up after they got the knife from her. She started crying. "Taraji why would you-" i corrected myself as i thought of what she's been through. She tried to grab for the knife again but i pulled her from it. She started to try and yank from me crying...but i held on to her and wrapped my arms around her. "It's ok baby im here for you...relax...just relax" i said hugging her. She tried to escape from my grip and i let her...i didn't want to be forcing her. She went to the corner of the room and laid down and balled up crying. She was shaking so badly..especially her hands. I went over and gently placed my hand on her head. I sat on the floor with her and lifted her up into my arms..i rocked her back and forth. "I love you..i promise...i always have and always will" i whispered to her. She just laid there in my arms...and didnt respond. I started crying too...crying with her...i felt terrible...like the worst human being in the world. Jussie and breyshere was standing behind me..probably crying too, looking and me rocking taraji in my arms crying with her. "Baby you need to eat something...please do...please!" I begged her. She didn't respond and just stared at me. I wanted too kiss her so bad..but i couldn't...not while she's in this condition. She was shaking way worse and tried to get away from me..but i held her to me gently she started swatting me off of her and got up. I swear i think i heard her say something, but i wasn't sure. I slowly tried to kiss her on her cheek. She had a bruise there so i had to be gentle but she ran. the nurse came back. "How is she?" she asked. We didn't wanna say anything about the knife. "She's not eating" i said saddened. "Well im sure she will over time but we must keep trying because its never healthy to starve yourself..especially in critical care." she said. "But let's try some fun activities that may brighten her up" she said smiling at taraji. We walked to a private artroom. And we got taraji in a smock..and i put one on too in case. The paint room was a big plain white room with four Corners. She handed her the paint and brush and the nurse, jussie and breyshere left. It was just me and taraji. She picked up a paintbrush and dipped it in some paint...she was frowning while doing it though. She painted streaks everywhere..and lines..i didnt know what it was but i didnt pay enough attention to try and figure it out. I walked up to her from behind and she panicked smacking me in the face with the paintbrush leaving red paint on my face. I saw a slight smile go across her lips. I smiled at her and laughed. She looked like she started to laugh too...but it faded. "Mind if i paint too?" I asked her. She just shrugged frightened. I picked up a paintbrush and got some pink paint. I painted a heart with tarajis name in it saying i love her. Most people would think it's cheesy, but nothings ever too cheesy for my lady. I looked over at her and she looked at her painting like her heart was breaking. I tapped taraji on her shoulder and showed her the painting..but she teared up..i ran over to her and hugged her. "What did i do?" i whispered into her ear. I heard her say something..but i didn't know what. She just hugged me back..with all the strength she had..which wasn't much. "I guess that means you love me too?" i asked hoping for a yes. She shrugged and looked away with the smallest smile on her face..but i saw it. "Yesss my baby loves me!" i cheered and gently and slowly kissed her on the cheek. "So what did you paint?" i asked her. She backed away and moved her hand showing me to come next to her. I backed away and it was her...crying...she was actually starting to cry too. I grabbed her at her sides to hug her, but she pulled away as if i was hurting her. "Im sorry baby" i said saddened. I gently put my forehead to hers. "Can i kiss the bruises again?" i said smiling at her. She slowly nodded. Usually when she hurt herself she would like me to kiss it and make it better...it was some babyish thing she would do..but i was adorable to me. I got down on my knees and took off the smock she was wearing and she lifted her shirt to show her stomach. The bruises actually seemed to be healing..ever since the first time i kissed them they seemed to heal up the smallest amount. I gently and slowly leaned in and kissed her bruises. All of them..slowly and gently. I looked up at her while i did it. She had her eyes closed and had her head up. I think it felt good. All i wanted was to make her feel good. I slowly put my hands on her sides. And slowly started moving upwards..kissing up her body. I think i heard the lightest moan. I started kissing at her ribs. She panicked and slightly shoved me off. "Im sorry..." i pleaded. She backed away and looked nervous. I went over and hugged her and kissed her cheek. The nurse came in the room and saw us. "Well it's glad to see you two bonding again" She said smiling. She saw the painting and gasped. "Yea..i know" i said. "But i think her bruises are healing." i said holding her..she put her head on my shoulder...she still was hesitated and fragile though. "Well it's late..maybe you can get her to sleep tonight" said the nurse. Breyshere and Jamal had already left. We went back up to tarajis room and the nurse closed the door. Taraji grabbed my arm and pulled me close to her. She still didn't say anything for the whole day..but at least she was starting to trust me again. She looked deep into my eyes. "Your lips are still swollen" i said. "Want me to kiss them and make them better?" i teased playfully. But she actually nodded. "Taraji...baby i was playing...your lips are swollen..i know it will hurt you..and i don't wanna hurt you" i said. But she ignored me and leaned in. She captured my lips before i could react. She slowly kissed me. I pulled away and she looked like the kiss hurt her. "I told you...not yet" i said smiling at her. she looked sad. "I'm sorry..but its for the best of you" i said kissing her on the cheek. I laid her down in bed and she eventually dozed off....

TBC....

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