How to Love (Becstin) #Wattys2015

~59

I walked through the hallways of the school, keeping my head down. I didn't want to keep my head up, because it would've shown that I'm alright when I'm not. I'll never be alright anymore, not after what I did.

   I've been avoiding everyone since that night. I haven't spoken to Kendall. I keep my distance from the boys, and I haven't even went near Austin. My mom's start into take notice that somethings off, but I don't tell her because I don't want her to worry. She's already worrying about her wedding. Can't have her worrying about me now, even though she probably already does.

   I continued walking, until I slammed into a brick wall.

   Correction a person.

   Austin to be exact.

   My books flew up in the air and I almost fell back, but Austin grabbed me. He pulled me close to him.

"Are you ok?" He asked. I looked up at him and nodded.

   I quickly bent down to pick up my books. Austin helped. We stood up. Austin stared at me and then grabbed me quickly and pushed me into an empty class room. He locked the door.

"Austin?" I questioned quietly. "Becky you've been avoiding ever since that night." He said. "I have no idea what the hell your talking about." I said. He shook his head. "You could talk to me." He said. I shook my head. "There's nothing to talk about." I said. "Becky." Austin groaned. I noticed he started to get aggravated. "Austin nothing's wrong with me. I'm perfectly fine." I said.

Austin slammed his hand on the desk. I jumped.

"Dammit Becky. Just talk to me. That's all I ask!" He snapped. I glared. "You want me to talk to you, fine!" I snapped."Austin I'm not ok. In fact I'm going fucking crazy. I shot and killed a man with a gun. How the hell am I supposed to live with that!" I snapped. "How am I supposed to walk around like everything is normal?! Nothing's fucking normal anymore!" I yelled before walking out.

  People stared at me as I stormed through the hallways.

"Nothing to see here people. Go do something with your boring ass lives!" I yelled.

   I walked out of the school, not caring at all about the consequences. I felt a hand pull on my arm. I turned around punched the person.

"Fuck!" Alex yelled. I gasped. "Alex- I- I'm sorry!" I stuttered.

   I noticed that the whole gang was here now. I stared at all of them, tears in my eyes. I dropped my bag and turned around. I started running. Running far away from here, them everyone.

   I heard people yelling for me. Screaming my name, telling me to come back, but is don't care. I ran towards the woods. I felt the leave crunch under my Tims, and sticks scratching my body.

   I continued running. Running seemed like the best option. I then tripped. I went tumbling down a hill.

   I screamed as my body hit rocks and twigs lodged themselves in my arms legs and stomach.

   I then splashed into water. I groaned. I tried to sit up, but everything was dizzy. I then started seeing black dots in my vision.

"No. No no!" I screamed.

   I started to feel myself losing consciousness.

"Austin." I whispered before finally blacking out.

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Sorry for not updating in a while guys. And it's pretty short. I just wanted to get this chapter out of the way fast so the next one can come in. Anyway I'll most likely be updating this weekend, so see you guys then. Luv you guys💘💘