Waking up in the morning next to the person you love, is an amazing feeling. Sometimes I wonder if this is all just one long dream. That this can't be real. Falling for someone who took you in when you were trespassing.
Me having an inner wolf, werewolves being real, and falling for the Alpha King of all werewolves. Is it real? Is this really real? I wonder what my life would be right now if I never met Mathew?
If I never saw him in he woods..where would I be? Would I be dead? Alive? With my father again? Would I be Emotionless? Not caring what happens to me.
Not caring who is alive and who is dead? Not caring if I was on the verge of death? Would I have cared to even carry on? Thinking of what I really could have turned out as, if Mathew never got the feeling someone was trespassing, would I have ever met him?
Not seeing Mathew in my life now would be like taking a part of my body that is well needed to survive in life. Deep in thought you wonder so many things, things that could happen or could have happened to you. Things that can go your way, or just the opposite. But I guess this is life. Not knowing what could happen to you and when. Or even if it does happen to you, is a mystery that humans can never find an answer to.
It's funny how faith works. So many things could happen to you that you would never see coming. I hear a voice say something, but it was all muffled to me as I was still thinking. Still in deep thought. I hear it again, the muffled sound but this time a bit clearer. Still in deep thought I hear it once more, and I finally understand what the muffled sound was. It was my name.
Again and again, I hear it. Finally snapped out of my thoughts, I look over and see Mathew looking at me with concern. Those eyes, filled with complete worry.
Eyes that have love in them, no doubt about it. His mouth moves but I can not hear. Silence is all that meets my ears. I shuffle on the bed moving to him, trying to reach him. I lay a hand on his warm smooth, perfect face. Looking at him was all I did. He still moved his mouth but I could not hear. I was too focused on him and him only. I didn't want to hear him speak, not yet.
I didn't want him to move, not yet. I just wanted to look at him, like it was my last chance. Like I would never see him again. He was so..perfect, so..right. Not one thing about him was wrong, not in my eyes. A smile laied on my face. I crawl even closer to him, and hug him. Taking in his amazing sent.
Having his warm body against mine, I had forgotten about the things I take for granted. The things that matter the most to us. Words come out to of my mouth but I had not comprehended what I had said, not until they were completely out. 'I love you' was it. I said nothing more and nothing less. I had surprised myself with what I said and I wondered if I meant it.
Did I, love him? I couldn't take the words I had said back. Not now. Not ever. I squeezed him even tighter and said it again. It came out once more and then another. It was like I could not stop myself from saying it, like I truly ment it. Did I? Feeling tingles on my back and an electricity of warmth, I knew he had wrapped his arms around me. The ones that make me feel safe.
The ones that I love so very much. Warm air hits my ear. It takes me a minute to get what he was saying. 'I love you too' was what this man had said to me. By then, I knew I really did love him. That I was not doing this out of being lonely or for being greatful.
But because I truly love this man, this god like man that is hugging me. We sit like this for a while, not moving. This, I will never forget. This amazing moment will never leave my mind.
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