Stay with us (Destiel)

Chapter Thirteen

*Dean's POV*

I stood in the kitchen, cooking Cas some dinner.

I know he doesn't really need food, but I like feeling like I am helping him.

Hell, I don't even know if he likes my cooking, but hey, he always eats it, so I always feed him.

..........

"Hey Cas, I made you dinner" I said opening the door and walking over to him slowly.

It ha been almost a week since we got him back, and although he was still sometimes weary of me, he was getting better.

The progress was slow, but it was defiantly there.

"Thank you Dean" he said, his deep voice as serious as ever.

After he had eaten, I put the dish on the bedside table and sat next to him, wrapping my arms around him slowly and gently.

After a few minutes sitting like this he reached up and kissed me softly, his lips trembling a bit.

I froze in surprise.

This was the first time we had kissed since he got back, and I was so caught up worried about his health, that I didn't even realise how much I missed the feel of his lips against mine.

I responded eagerly.

A little too eagerly apparently, because Cas pulled away.

"I'm sorr- "

"You don't need to apologise Cas, I should be more careful" I cut him off.

I slowly put my arms around him and pulled him against me.

He snuggled closer and put his head against my chest.

"Can I ask you to do me a favour?" He asked uncertainly.

"Anything Angel" I replied, laying my cheek against his head.

"Sing to me" he said softly

"Okay", I thought for a moment and then began.

"Last night I had a dream
The dream I had was true
I fell through the stars
When walking on the moon
Burned like a thousand candles in his arms

His skin under my finger tips
The honeysuckle on his lips
Sweeter than a man deserves to taste
Mercy, mercy, what else can I say?

But amen, amen, amen

Last night we were born together
It was like we'd always been
He'll be with me forever
If I don't see him again
We poured the wine until our cup ran over

Unfolding like a mystery
Inside of him like poetry
A thousand horses running through my veins
Mercy, mercy what else can I say

Amen, amen, amen

I laid down in his garden
Naked on his floor
Windows up, the curtains blowing
He don't lock the door

Amen, amen

At the banquet table
A beggar at a feast
I felt his tongue between my lips
And I forgot to breath
We stayed there 'til the candles burned the carpet

Last night I had a dream
The dream I had was true
Mercy, mercy, what else can I say
Mercy, mercy, I kneeled down and prayed

Amen, amen, amen"

Cas was silent.

"Cas? I'm sorry, it's just, just I think of you every time I hear this song" I said, worried.

He looked at me with unshed tears in his eyes.

I slowly reached my hand out to wipe them away before they could fall.

"Th-that was beautiful Dean" he said, his voice slightly muffled as he put his head against my chest again.

"Can I ask you to do something else?" He asked, sounding really nervous now.

"Anything Angel" I repeated

"Can you, can you kiss me again? I'm not fully healed yet so I apologise in advance for if I freak out, but I need you to kiss me" he sound almost like he was pleading me, like he though I wasn't going to want to kiss him.

"You don't even need to ask Angel" I said before gently pressing my lips against his again.

The kiss was sweet, yet sad, and as always it ended too soon.

Cas pulled away.

"Dean, I know this whole thing has been very difficult for you, and I just want you to know that I love you so much" he choked up a bit, "I just want you to know, if you want to leave and find someone worthy of your time, I won't try to stop you"

I froze in horror.

"Do you want me to leave?" I whispered.

He looked shocked, "Of course not! I don't want to hold you back, or make you unhappy, but I will never stop wanting and loving you"

I closed my eyes.

When I opened them again I knew the were full of anger.

Cas flinched violently when he saw my expression and tried to get away from me, shaking in fear.

"Pl-Please Dean, don't be mad" he cried.

I was scaring him, but I was to furious to care.

I moved quickly to hover above him with my arms either side of his body so he couldn't get away.

"How could you think I would want to leave you? I love you so much it causes me physical pain to be away from you, I don't care how broken you are, I will always, always fix you, I need you Cas, I have been happier with you then I have been, ever, how can you even think I wouldn't want you anymore?" I growled, smashing my lips against his before realising what I was doing and jumping off him, backing as far away from him as possible.

"C-Cas, I-I'm so sorry, I just ruined everything didn't I?" The tears started streaming down my face.

Cas looked up, relaxing a bit when he saw I wasn't angry anymore.

"Just, please, give me some alone time, I need to think" he pleaded softly.

"O-Okay, I will be outside, call me when you are ready" I choked out before leaving.

A/N
Hey guys, the song in this chapter is 'Amen' by Bon Jovi, I was listening to it the other day and thought of Dean & Cas, so I put it in, hope you enjoyed :)