The Youtuber Inn

"Fuck It. Can't Get Any Worse."

(Alfie's POV)

It's time to get her back.

"Zoe? Zoe?!?" I banged viciously on the door, my mind racing and heart pounding. I didn't give a shit if Caspar was there, hell, I didn't give a shit if his dick was in her mouth, I'm getting her back. Right now.

The door swung open and god. dammit.

It was just Caspar.

"Where's Zoe?" I asked, cutting him off before he could speak.

"Why should I tell you?" He said nonchalantly, blocking the doorway.

"I need to talk to her-"

"Go fuck yourself, Alfie." He said, calm.

"Caspar-"

"No, I love you and all but you've been a serious dick over the course of this trip. you're just gonna have to deal with the fact that I'm with zoe now. I'm sorry."

"I've been a dick?!" I retorted, "you're the one who stole my girlfriend!"

He paused and bit his lip.
"She's by the pool. Just...just promise me you wont try and take her back? Please? I know that's asking a lot but...but I don't think she's totally over you yet and I...I don't wanna lose her so soon. I need her to focus on just me for a while so that I can find out if im just her rebound...and if i am...you...you can have her back. Just promise you won't go try and take her."

I furrowed my brows, staring blankly at his melancholy expression. I felt bad. I actually felt bad for the piece of shit who stole zoe from me.

"I promise." I said quietly.

I had never told such a blatant lie.

****

She looked miraculous.
There wasn't even anything particularly special about the way she looked here, but I had never seen her so beautiful.

She was smiling, stunningly smiling with the sun highlighting her skin beautifully, a gorgeous solid black bikini decorating her. Her eyes were huge and shimmery, and she was laughing at whatever it was Niomi was telling her. And she was stunning. Unbelievably stunning.

And I was the idiot who ran off with some whore and got stoned out of my mind instead of putting up a fight to keep her.
Well now I'm fighting.

I walked towards her with purpose, trying not to acknowledge the way Niomi and Grace were looking at me. Zoe caught on to the fact that they were no longer paying attention to her and turned her head, her gorgeous smile melting when she saw me. That's not right. Her smile is supposed to grow when she sees me. Like it used to.

I just kind of kept walking to her, expressionless, my body moving without me even really comprehending that I was moving, I just kind of walked.
She stood up from her chair and I kept walking.

"Alfi-" She started.
And then I was kissing her.
I was actually, legitimately kissing her and it felt so good.

She pulled away quickly.

"What about Amanda?" She asked immediately.

"Amanda was the biggest mistake of my life, leaving you was the biggest mistake of my life. Zoe Sugg, I love you with every ounce of my being and I am utterly fed up with seeing you and Caspar together, not just because it's not you and me but because I know you're unhappy. And you being unhappy isn't good."

She paused, eyes wide and lost and teary,
"I-Caspar-"

"Don't try and tell me you love him more than me. Cause you don't. I know you don't, Zoe."

She tucked her head into my chest, letting tears fall.
"I don't."

*****
5:00 pm

We went to the beach. Just the two of us. For like, 3 and a half hours. Then we went bowling. And it was like, amazing.

But now I was in a room with Joe, Marcus and Caspar, and I couldn't look at him. I know what he did, and I know it's right that I got Zoe back, but it didn't change the fact that I lied to his face and I felt awful.

"So, I think the four of us should go out tonight. Guys night out, yeah? I'm tired of us not being close anymore." Joe proposed.

I glanced at Caspar, and as soon as we made eye contact I averted my gaze back to Joe.

"I don't think that's a good idea." Caspar said, quietly.

"I do." Marcus said. We all turned to him.

"I have a lot I need to sort out and I need you guys by my side. I'll try anything." Marcus stated, sure of himself.
I furrowed my brows.
I did miss the guys, but I didn't want to spend any more time with Caspar. I couldn't.

"Alfie?" Joe asked, hopeful.

I shook my head.
"Not with him." I gestured to Caspar.
He looked hurt.
Good.

"Alfie maybe we should just try and move past this whole thing, I'm sure Caspar's sorry and-" Joe started.

"Bullshit, he's not sorry. He's the opposite of sorry. Taking zoe from me is he biggest accomplishment ever."

"Fuck off!" Caspar retorted, leaning towards me.
Joe put his hand on his shoulder in attempt to calm him. They looked at each other briefly, as if Joe was asking him to stop, not for me, but for him.

"We're all dickheads, alright? That's been made pretty obvious," Joe glanced at each of us,
"But we can at least be dickheads together yeah?"

I looked up at him, then Marcus, the Caspar.

"Yeah." Caspar said. He nodded.
"Yeah, let's fix this."

"Me too." Marcus joined. They all turned to me. I bit my lip, scratching the side of my head.
"Fuck it. Can't get any worse."

(HI this is shorter than I wanted it to be but it's been sO LONG i had to release something.
It's kinda funny how hardcore it backfired that I stopped updating, reads per chapter have dropped waY LOWER. All is good though, i know there's still some of you who are gonna stick with me till the end and I can't explain how much that means to me. Love you guys.)