Broken Home

Chapter 2

Iris's P.O.V
It's been two weeks since the incident. I'm now back home with my un-loving family. I miss Dana so much. Why am I alive? Why the fuck couldn't we die together like we planned! I felt tears streaming down my face. She was truly the only one who I talked to when I cried. Now I have no one. Not my family. Dana was my only friend, no one else talked to me. Now she's gone and I'm stuck here in this fucking hell hole called Life. The tears came faster. I wipe them away once I heard a knock on the door.
"We're going to Dana's to get her stuff. Her mom doesn't want it. C'mon." My mom urges me out of bed. I slip on my shoes and rush outside into the car.
As soon as we get there I run into her room an examine it. All the memories came rushing back. The time we broke her t.v. because she was trying to take her phone from my hand. I was going to tell her crush she likes him. I smiled at that memory. The night we were actually happy. Until her step dad came yelling at us. Grabbing Dana and shoving her against the wall while I try to pry him off. I shake the memory out of my head and look at the bed. The one we were laying in... the night she died and I survived. I lay down in the spot I was and looked over to where she was. I imagined her there again smiling. Telling me she was glad I was there for her. Then the image faded and I was back in reality. Stuck alone. Without my bestfriend. I sit up and look at the clipboard she kept of all our photos we took together. I take it off the wall and place it in a box. I grab her favorite stuffed animal and our friendship necklace I got us a week after we met. I got her laptop, clothes, jewelry. Everything I could remember her by.
I bring the box outside and place it in the car. As soon as were home I set all of her stuff in my room. The clipboard up first. I put on the necklace that matched mine and placed her clothes in my closet. I set up her laptop and turned it on.
Password...Fuck.
I think for a moment then it clicked 4-16-06 the date we met. 9 years ago and now she's gone. I sit there for awhile going through some old photos and videos we took together. I couldn't help but laugh at our videos. We were dumb kids who wanted to rule the world. Before we knew how much hell it is.
I shut off her computer and head to bed.
Another day of prison.
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My mom wakes me up to terrible news. We are moving to Australia because my dad got a job offer and now we have to move to a different country with different people. Why couldn't the pills work?
I ask myself this question 100 times a day. We leave in 3 days so I better start packing now. I start with my posters, then clothes, then all the other extra crap. I put Dana's stuff in an extra box writing "Dana's Stuff Do Not Touch!" All over it. Soon enough there was nothing left but my bed.
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The three days pass by pretty quick. We were now at the airport loading our stuff on the plane. I sit down and put in my ear buds blasting This is what it feels like by Jasmine Thompson I close my eyes and drown in the lyrics.

No I don't even know if I'm alive. Oh without you now this is what it feels like.
"Iris wake up we're here." Nathan says smacking my arm. I groan and sit up. That was a quick flight. We finally get all of our stuff off of the plane and get a cab to our new house. I press play on my playlist and Words by Skylar Grey came on. I shut my eyes once again and sing along to the lyrics.

The longer I stand here, the louder the silence. I know that your gone but sometimes I swear that I hear, your voice when the wind blows so I talk to the shadows hoping you might be listening cause I want you to know. It's so loud inside my head.
I open my eyes and see a decent looking house in front of me. Two story like my old one. I grab my stuff and head inside. There was already furniture in the rooms. I head upstairs and scope out each room. I choose once and set my stuff in it. The rest of the stuff should be shipped in soon. I unpacked my clothes and hung up my posters. I set up Dana's laptop and her clipboard. I stare at the photos for awhile. "Why can't you be here with me right now..." I whisper.
"God just get over it already. She's dead boohoo that's life." I hear Nathan speak from my doorway. I feel anger build up in me. "Shut up!" I yell turning to him.
"No it's pathetic she killed herself cause she was to much of a pussy to deal with life."
"You're the reason people kill themselves Nathan! You talk loads of shit making them feel worthless in this world. That's what kills people. Words!" I walk up to him and my fist collided with his face. My mom and dad run upstairs leaning down to see if he was okay. "I hate you guys just as much as you hate me. Dana was the only one keeping me together in this world unlike you ungrateful people I have to call a "family" you guys have no idea how many times I wish those pills worked. Instead they killed my bestfriend and left me here to rot with you disgusting people I don't even know! Get out of my room. Get out of my life." I scream choking on tears. I locked the door and press my back against it. I hear my mom yelling saying how she'd wish they worked to maybe this family would be better off. I slide down the door and bring my knees up to my chest. I let the tears fall and fall until there were no more.
"It's okay. I'm here." I hear a familiar voice next to me. I open my eyes and see Dana.
"D-Dana?"
"Yes Hun?"
"Help..." I felt the tears come back.
"I wish I could..." I see tears form in her eye.
"Why'd you have to leave? Now I'm here alone inside this broken home..."
"I'm so sorry..." Sobs leaving her mouth.
I stand up an walk to my bed.
"Why couldn't they work for me!?" I yell turning around only to see I was talking to myself. It's was just my imagination. Covering my face I lay on my bed. I glance at the bathroom door then back at the ceiling. I make up my mind and head to the bathroom grabbing my little container.
Closing the door I lock it behind me. I sigh and open the container revealing the blades. I take one out and put it to my arm.
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The blood was already on the floor. Just ten more. I tell myself.
  I wipe up the mess and rinse my arm. I wrap it up in a bandage and pull down my sleeve. Putting up my container I go to my dresser and look through my clothes. I grab Dana's Blink-182 sweat shirt and grey ripped skinny jeans. I put in my lavender colored bandana and black converses. Once I was finished I headed downstairs. "I'm going out." I bluntly say and walk straight out the door before they could tell me no. After about four blocks I realized I had no idea where I was going. I grab out my phone and look up hang out spots in Sydney Australia. I found a place called Royal Botanic Gardens. It was about 2-3 miles away. I didn't care I was desperate. I didn't want to go home. Plus I need the exercise. It takes me an hour to finally get there and I was exhausted. I walk in and sit down. I had no idea what I was doing. I sit there for awhile just looking at all the views. After awhile of just sitting and looking I decide to go to a little park I saw while walking here. I look up at the trees and the bright sun. I thought how much Dana would enjoy this.
"Beautiful isn't it?"
I look down to see a purple haired boy looking up at the sky next to me.
"Hmm? Oh yeah. Never seen a view like this before."
"You're accent is different. America?" He asks looking at me.
"Yeah, first day here."
"Well in that case welcome to Sydney where there are beautiful views but retched people. I'm Michael." He holds out his hand and I take it into mine shaking it.
"I'm Iris." I smile.
"Iris. I love it. So you know where you're going?"
"Umm. No I'm actually lost now that I think about it. But I don't mind I don't wanna go home anyway." I sigh.
"Ah, I know what you mean." He nods. I didn't realize we were walking while talking. I look across the park and see her.
"Dana?" I say.
"What?" Michael questions.
I look at Michael then back to her. Who was now gone.
"Nothing." I choke. I had to hold back the tears.
"You sure?"
"Mhm. I uh- I need to go... I'll see you around Michael."
"Wait Iris. Atleast take my number. Just so if you need help around here." I hand him my phone and he types in his number. As soon as he was done I ran. I didn't know where but I just kept running. Tears streaming down my face I find a Forest area and head there.  Soon enough my legs give out and I'm on the ground, laying there staring up at the sky. The last tear dropping on the dry leaves.
"Why is this happening?" I ask myself aloud. Why do I keep imagining her everywhere I go?
Because you miss her.
Well yeah. I miss her a lot. She's the only person who understood me. The one who wiped my tears when I cried. The one who'd hug me when I'm scared. The one who made me feel important when everyone else was out to get me. Now she's gone and I'm just a piece of paper. That has been crumbled up, burned, ripped apart and stepped on. And her... Well now she's an angel. While I'm stuck fighting the storms all around me..

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