Hermits + Canyons

Jess

Do you ever look at your life and think WTF why did I do that? I do I basically look and evaluate the wreckage that I call a life and just think maybe I should end it, jump out this window if I have to.
     Leaning out the window of my bedroom I see the height and just subconsciously fill myself with anxiety I mean the drop down from there is ridiculous, that's why it's always mission impossible to sneak out; jumping to the balcony and then climb down the ivy crawling up the front of my house to get down. Nahh not today I can't be bothered to go out today and my friend trying to convince me to go with the promise of an 1/8 of cocaine and a few attractive guys. Frankly it bores me maybe if it was 1 gram of cocaine and a full house of attractive guys so I have my options open but nope.
    Staying in isn't so bad it's like a break from everything. I light a menthol cigarette as I lean beside the window I was thinking of jumping out of.
  "Josh has a thing for blondes!! Xxx" A message pops up from my best friend Karina as I roll my eyes at the thought of another conversation with Josh. Yes he's tall dark and handsome but there's no light in that head of his, he's completely moronic and still finds movies like Scary Movie funny.
   After finishing my cigarette I put my beige fur coat on over my pastel pink lingerie dress and sit on my bed. The funny thing about my bed is that it's the only girly thing in my room you'd think a daughter of a millionaire would be able to change her bed to match the black walls and scattered posters of Iggy Pop and Debbie Harry on the walls but no I just never have the time to swap it despite coming in my room everyday and looking at that bed in confusion.
    "Nothing's better than sitting with friends watching a good B-movie." My TV plays silently in the background of my ever flowing thoughts as I play my hair into to parts leaving the fringe as you would.
   "Bang" The noise of a vehicle outside I think it's a van, well it definitely sounds like a van. But I ignore it like wise with my phone as several messages have been going off, probably from Karina.
   "Blonde, that means your his typeeee xxx"
    "Jess..?"
  "Hun are you pissed at me, reply!?! Xxx"
    "Answer ffs"
   "Hun??"
I turn off my phone. Doesn't she get the hint I'm not interested I don't want some vain creep, but he's good looking so that means according to Karina itching else matters. I begin to fall asleep as my eyes close all I can think about is Karina's fast text demands each text going off the more I feel like craning them down her throat just to shut her up.
   Suddenly a hand covers my mouth and nose it has a cloth on it, wait what's going on?!.
    I start to panic as four people are stood around my bed wearing what looks like Jack Nicholson masks. I try to scream and kick but my screams are muffled by the cloth.
    "I'm sorry." The person holding the cloth says to me as I start to become more drowsy as my eyes start to close again.