The Life Of Selena Caribbean Blue

Recovering

    Days went by and I had been in my room, but crying too because my parents aren't here to help me anymore or to even comfort me anymore as well as nobody can anymore. As soon as it was night time I snuck in my parent's room and got her favorite shirt, but my aunt is asleep in the guests room because she doesn't want to sleep in my parent's bed. The reason why not because that was her sister and it was my mom including I put her sweater on, but it still has her scent on it! So, I went back to my bedroom to fall asleep in it and I started to cuddle then I finally fell asleep. I was dreaming, but it was a nightmare including I woke up because I dreamed of the accident.
I couldn't go back to sleep and it was like 12:00 a.m. including I can't get rid of it, but it's not like any other nightmare because it repeats every time I go to sleep. The reason I know this is because my ancestor had a similar repeating nightmare as me and that she didn't eat or sleep for almost a year, but who cares I might turn out just like her after the accident. I couldn't believe we had so much in common and that she only tried everything that she can to move on, but I can't even move on because I'm still trying to figure out how or what caused the train to come on those tracks. I'm hopeless anyways and can't even figure out way, but I really want to give up because I can't face it anymore or this so much pain I'm facing right now. The only thing that can get me to recover is to get my parents back and I can't use my powers on the dead including it was against my powers rules book because I will be punished for it!
     If I break it I wonder what would happen, but I jumped as there was a knock on my bedroom door because I get scared some times when I'm in my own world and it was my aunt to give me breakfast because I guess she wanted me to eat. I haven't told her I've been up half the night because of my repeating nightmare, but I didn't want her to know anyways and she told me she was going to work including I told I'm still recovering from my parents death. So, she left and I'm home alone doing my school work that Sarah gave me including Devin because I need to turn my stuff in to pass my grade level, but the school's principal came to visit me before to tell me he is sorry for my lost. He also gave me time to recover and he gave me a hug, then left including after that I got missed work from two months because I had to do it some teachers are strict on me about it to be turned in, but the others pass me anyways. As I am doing my made up school work and trying to get this done, but I took a break because I'm almost done with it including the reason why is that my powers help me to get it done or that I'm cheating to get all of it done.
     As I was taking my break I went into my parent's room and found their stuff that I wouldn't agree to give it away because I have a part of them with me still including I found their wedding pictures that they were happy in, but I think about all the time is that they are even happier where they are right now. I even went through the day my brother was born and the memories with him as growing up photos, but I found the day I was born pictures including I was tiny because I see why they thought I was going to die. I also saw the photos where I grew up in and the memories of all of us being a big happy family, but I started to cry because I'm young when they died including who will walk me down the aisle when I get married now. I even went through their clothes and I wore my mom's clothes to feel closer to her than anyone else including I wore my dad's watch to feel closer too! I put the things away in the basement and giving my brother dad's clothes, but I'm keeping the hoodie including when my brother came to get the clothes because I texted him to come get the clothes; I told him here is a part of dad for him to feel closer to him.
I told him I'm keeping mom's clothes and he hugged me so tightly, but we both started to cry including we both lost our parents because we both miss them so desperately. Then, he let's go and leaves in his car with the clothes including I wish that I could forget this pain, but the doctor said it was depression because I've been like this since the death. I started to go in my room and do the rest of my school work, but I finally finished including I started to get on my phone because I wanted the updates what happened. As I checked my phone, but I decided not to because I was scared and I went to the garage instead to see my parent's other car including it is a Volkswagen cc 2.0T still new. I visited it and got in it with the keys because I remember they were going to give it to me when it was a special moment, but now that can't happen including I got out of it to go to my room to stay in there for a moment and to think should I drive that car when nobody is home!