The Life Of Selena Caribbean Blue

Let Me Go

Selena's POV

   I don't know what to do because I'm locked behind my bedroom's door, but with a boot on including I really got hurt or now what hurts the worst is my heart broken and that I got bullied. I wonder or even think to myself should I be the girl who runs away from life and say the let me go to the pain who controls my sadness or depression because I'm thinking that alone in my room, but I know I can't run away from here including I was thinking real hard about that while writing it down in my diary to help me get my emotions out! All I know is that my emotions are out of control and when Leon texted me out of the blue, but that's when I got out of my own world including he distracted me for a little bit because I didn't care who gave him my number or didn't if he had it anyways. After I let him go and tried to put up my phone for tonight, but after I tried to relax; something popped up on my phone because it was from the school saying we will take exams next week and I already took mine. I'm really smart, but they let me do it anyways because they knew the bully will do something again to me and that they want me to be safe including they are still looking for the person who did this to me once again; it's no big deal to me, but it hurts a lot that I'm the one who got pushed down the stairs on my way to my next class.
   My aunt knocked on my bedroom door and she was telling me that it's almost Christmas, but I didn't want to celebrate it because my parents are not here anymore with me including I didn't want to break my aunt's heart if I told her that I didn't want to do Christmas. So, I went along with her to do Christmas, but it won't be the same this year without my parents and that Devin texted me saying that he is taking me out on Christmas Eve including he will bring me back at my house Christmas morning because he wants me to get my mind off of the bully/other stuff like my parents. He's a good boyfriend, but how can I tell him how I feel so lonely at Christmas now and he already knew what it feels like to lose parents who loved you since birth because he lost his parents back when, before he had met me including he had gone many years without his parents on Christmas. Maybe, that's why he's taking me out is to forget about the pain and torture of thinking about Christmas will not be the same as without as my parents because I could still feel a deep dark hole in my heart, but I told him ok including he got off of his phone for the night to finally to relax. He told me he was relaxing and that I told I was busy including I told my aunt that I was getting ready for bed, but I really wasn't going to sleep because of my nightmares of losing my parents.
   It's the demons reminding me of the accident and that I tried yelling or screaming out saying to "LET ME GO," but they're not going away including I got up to go to the bathroom because I needed to think in the mirror. All I could see when I entered is that I see myself a powerful girl who lost her parents/getting bullied, but I couldn't stand it any longer because I saw the tears including I took my fist and raised it up, but I resisted to punch the mirror. The next thing I know is that I was crying and I told myself there's another tear to shed after all because the pain is still there deep down in my broken black heart from the people I loved the most were gone just like that out of my life, but another way of saying is that they vanished away from me including I had even much more worst thoughts now. The demons are making it worst and all I could think about is that what if my aunt is next because I'm scared of losing her, but she's all I had left in my family, except my dad's side of the family including I started to walk back to my bedroom. There was my life and I didn't know my dad's side of the family like his brothers/sisters as my aunts and uncles, but I like to keep it that way including they give me presents every year because they know I'm alive; I even found myself like I was in this dream or nightmare, but all I can do is cry myself to sleep and I finally realized I wanted to do is be a girl that runs away from her life of the cause of the demons/pain that she's in because she can't handle it anymore and saying to the demons/pain to "LET ME GO," including I finally decided to do is..............!!!!!!!!!!!!

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