Darkness is always with us

The awakenning

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Stiles POV

What the actual fuck is happening to me. Malia can't be right, how can he know, that he'd got caught, or that I would come in the woods at this date, this hour you know we can do it Stiles don't you want it all? power, control, even a pack if you want to.

"Stiles are you alright? Are you listening to the plan? He says it's important."

He's in my head again, since he was gone I was still hearing him but it was fading slowly which was a good thing I guess. But now he was louder than ever. I don't know what to do, I'm so lost, do I even want to listen to Malia's no... his plan. I can't do this, I got Allison killed, I can't go back to the nogitsune, even if my guts screams I should go back. I look to Malia and finally answer: " I need Scott, yes Scott will know what to do Scotts always knows," She's looking at me weirdly, I mean Scott is a great idea.

"Okay, if you want but you've got to find out where they hide the nemeton thigny."

Just hearing the word nemeton gives me a rushing feeling of control and power, I can't let this go. I can't .

Suddenly an intense smell comes up to me, and without a doubt and knowing how I knew it was Lydia's.

"They're here, go hide. I'll contact you if I ever need you..." Malia looks at me in the eyes, she finally nods and runs away. I'm not ready to see them, I don't know even how I'm going to react. Should I tell them everything? Definitely not, because I'm not sure of what I want to do myself, do I want him in me again? Yes, you do Stiles stop resisting you're already changing imagine what we could...

"Stiles !!!" Lydia screams as she jumps in my arms. At the same moment he was gone, for now. For now, I'm going to just enjoy her.

"That's still me."

She looks at me and smiles, like she finally found the old Stiles back, oh how I wish. Scott approach with some dude I don't know oh and Kira.

"dude you smell different"

"Scott, that's all you're going to say to me?" I joke hoping he won't notice there's absolutely something going on with me. He looks at me and finally hugs me.

"I'm glad you're back."

Am I ? All I could think about right now is killing someone, and that's not good, that's not me well maybe it's me now... They can't know they can't. I'll just have to play the old Stiles card.

"Who's the new guy?" I ask .

"come home and we'll all explain it to you there." I nod and follow them, I feel like I'm getting stronger every breath I take. While we're walking Lydia looks at me and whispers to me: " Stiles I'm really glad you're okay, if something happens to you I couldn't ... I could not survive it. Please if there's anything wrong I'm here for you." 

I want to tell her so bad, I want to tell everyone, but by telling everyone I'm 100% sure they would try to find a way to destroy the "dark side" in me. Yea I know lame star wars reference, I'm still me , just with an urge of power... Talking of power I feel strangely strong, I don't know how...

"Dude you sure you're ok, because you really do smell, a lot and ..."

"I'm fine, stop smelling me Scott please, I haven't showered in like forever, I know I smell bad." I'm so good at lying, Bad habit. 

We finally arrived at Scott's house. We all sat in the living room kinda like an intervention circle.  There's Me, Scott, Kira, the guy who I still don't know and Lydia all watching me.

"So who's the new guy?" I have to calm the atmosphere. 

" Stiles, we want to talk about you, what happened to you?" says Lydia with the sweetest voice ever.

Crap I can't tell them crap crap crap crap.

"oh my god." Everyone just turns their head at Scotts. "what" glad to have a change of subject.

"I know what's your smell."