Darkness is always with us

After...

Weeks have passed since all of the Nogitsune business. And yet I still can’t believe that you, my best friend, is gone. But, I have to be strong. I’m a strong girl, even if my world is falling apart. Nobody can see it, even my parents haven't noticed. Our lives changed so much in the past 3 years. I don’t even think about college anymore, when it was something I once worried about all of the time. But nobody is really the same anymore, since… that night. We’ve all been going to school, but we don’t really talk to each other. We just go to our classes and leave afterwards. The only person I want to talk to right now is you honestly. I remember how that moment went like it was yesterday. I wasn’t there when it happened, but I felt it. It hurt so much; I've never felt something that strong before. I now know what it feels like to lose someone you truly love. I made a promise to myself and, well, to you too. It was that I was going to keep boys out of my life for a little while. I’m going to think about myself only, and I need this; to spend more time with my family and friends because we never know what could happen. Tomorrow is your funeral. We’ll all be there of course, but will we talk to each other? You were the glue to our friendships. Without you, I wouldn’t have even met Scott and Stiles. Speaking of Stiles, I feel horrible for him. It’s been hard on all of us but I can’t even imagine what Stiles is going through. I really want to know and be here for him, but he won’t talk to anyone- not even to Scott. That’s why I’m so stressed out about tomorrow. My therapist had a point, writing it for the first time make it feel more real, but I need someone to speak... well write to. I need to go to school now. I’ll try to talk to Scott and Stiles, and I’ll try to get our friendship like it used to be even though without you, Ally, it'll never be the same. Hope you’re well up there.

See you later I guess…

Lydia

Just as I closed my diary my mom enters my room.

‘’Love, you’re going to be late for school, do you want a ride?’’

Since all of the recent events, I can’t drive. I’m too shaky all the time, and my car makes me remember all the good times I had with Allison in it. My mom has been a sweetheart for the past week. ‘’No, Kira is picking me up but thanks have a good day.’’ She nodded and got out of my room.

I got up of my bed to get ready. Kira was the only one I really kept contact with since all of this… I don’t really like her that much, but she’s a good distraction and she’s kind. I put on a beautiful summer dress with a floral pattern and the high heels that go with it. I put a lot of makeup on to hide my puffy eyes, caused by no sleep because of nightmares. I was getting downstairs when I heard Kira’s car honk. I take my bag and leave the house.

‘’How are you today?’’ Kira asks me with a puppy face. She was doing that face every morning, well to be honest every time she was speaking to me that face came up. The ‘’I know your best friend is dead and I’m sorry’’ face. I just nodded and got in the car.

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When I got to school I tried to look for Scott or Stiles because I really wanted my friends back, but then I looked back and for a second I could of swore I saw someone, not anyone. The one I’ve been having nightmares of since that night. But it couldn’t be, we got rid of him, maybe it was the banshee thingy acting again. I needed to find Stiles right now, because the person I just saw for a second was him, but not the one we all love. I definitely saw the nogitsune again.