Chapter 5
I woke up to the sound of my mother at the foot of the stairs talking to a man with a voice I did not recognise.
"He will be fine, the fall did little harm, there's nothing wrong with him but do call an ambulance if this happens again" he said.
She bid the stranger that I assumed to be some sort of doctor fair well.
As I rolled over towards the top of he stair where she would soon stand I saw Sempas school bag lying open again the banister.
"Did Sempa take the day off?" I asked before she had even realised I was awake.
She looked at me worryingly
"Well yes, I think something happened between him and his girl and he ran off before I could stop him and I didn't want to go off looking for him because I was waiting with you" she said apologetically as horror struck my face.
If something had happened between them, I don't want to even think how he's feeling. Though I was upset and angry with them both when they went out, he did love her otherwise he wouldn't have put me through that. I got up and ran down the stairs, out of the door before another word was said. I didn't no were I was going but my feet carried me on, at least they seemed to no where they were going. I went on past the church and went up through the forest ripping the knees of my jeans as I stumbled. I looked up towards the top of the hill where a clearing lay and I guessed that's where I was going. I was out of breathe and ready to collapse, but I couldn't stop and I didn't intended to. The light broke through the trees as I reached the green and yellow clearing, my arm went up over my eyes to shield them and as It did my feet fell, fell down some sort of rocky slope that cut against my back.
Before I could react my feet and hands hit a mossy base as my body crouched to take the impact of the fall. I looked up, the sun still beating down and faulting my vision but as I stood up I saw a slouching body sitting on a large boulder, legs swinging rapidly of it and hitting back down against the rock with force. Arms thronging rocks wildly without a care in what ever direction it suited. As I against my head out of the beating suns reach, the person was looking at me and to my surprise and also to my knowledge because I knew he would be there, and he was, Sempa.
"How'd the hell did you no I was here?" he asked still thronging rocks.
This was something I could not tell him because I still didn't no.
"What happened?" I asked, dreading the answer especially after I looked down and saw his black shirt lying in the mud, one of his favourite items of clothing as he once said because it got him out of fancy formal wear and it looked good on him, but my guess was because Nakuia would wear it round the school or when she stayed over at our house, to the discomfort of my mother. Sempa looked up at the blinding sun and sighed.
"She said that she didn't love me, and she never had, that she mad a mistake and wanted someone else". Those words hit me hard and for some reason I already knew who that person was, me. I don't know if he knew it but I think he had the suspicion.
" She was the one thing in my life that was right, the one thing that was perfect, I couldn't fault her, she was always happy with me and made me feel like I was something important, seems it was all a lye though, im nothing more than anyone else in this world.
That hit me hard, its different when its just someone you no from school but when something like that comes out the words of a friend, of a brother, there pain is your. But for once I knew what to say.
"No Sempa your right your not more important, your just as important as every one else, as me, as mum and as her and that is all you ever need to be for someone to love you, you don't need to be important you just need to be Sempa and if they cant handle it then they are what you need, and she wasn't but one day you will find her and when you do, you want to be important, you will just want to be you".
I knew what to say because this once went though my head apart from now I had found her. I could see that Sempa couldn't see it, but at least he took it in. He stood up as sloppily as he got up in the morning.
"Might as well go home, try and do that essay for English" he said trailing of in front of me. That essay was due for last week, but I didn't think it was the right time to bring him up on it. As we walked in silence round the church, but this time through the graveyard I kept my eyes on Sempa, hoping to read his body launge. He walked staring at the ground his muddy gold fringe over his face, shoulders hunched digging his hands down into his pocket. There was a breeze of cold air as he flicked his head back to look at the sky.
I stopped dead in my tracked, as he had moved his head up I could see the name on a grave stone, six along from where I was standing.
"You not coming?" he asked me looking concerned at the horror on my face.
"Eh, il catch up" I said so fast my words were almost one. I stood there just gazing around until he had turned the corner and had turned his head many times to look at me. I ran across to the grave-stone, the edge was crumbling down around it and weeds had sprung round the sides and the back. I knelt down putting my hands on the top of the stone. I read out loud the name, "Seirra Namen". I said it once more louder.
"Seirra Namen", I screamed as it ran though my body making it shake all over I knew this name, though I had not heard it before. It was the name of that girl, the girl in my head.
