Chapter 4
I looked over at the clock, 5:30. I was surprised that my brother got in so late, and that my parents didn't wake me up or call an ambulance if they couldn't. I had an essay due for Friday but I decided to do it before I started getting ready for school, since id already slept for thirteen and a half hours. I got up at half 7, instead of eight so id have time to cook breakfast, but mum had already beaten me to it.
"Were you okay last night, were you drinking or something?"
I wasn't expecting questions on the matter,
"No I just felt really tired when I got home", I blurted out to fast, it didn't really matter what they thought happened, because I didn't even know.
"We were going to call an ambulance, but then you started snoring" my dad chuckled from the table, I hadn't noticed him sitting at when I came in.
I laughed along with the, unenthusiastically.
"I would get out of hear before your brother gets up" he said warningly as I looked at him pretending to not know what he was talking about because I wanted him to think I woke up earlier than that.
Mum interrupted " he didn't come home from school then waltzed in at 5 in the morning with his girlfriend, I think who left just before you got up"
I groaned at the news I already knew because she tripped half way down the stairs taking my brothers summer project with her, probably putting it all out of order, or at least a small part of me hoped so.
I made some toast and then a quick exit to get out of the firing line, as my brother walked down the stairs looking rougher than usual, then hearing a coffee cup being slammed down on the table, usually I would feel sorry for my brother but in these circumstances I feel more sorry for the cup. I got dressed, not attempting the ragged look in my dreams. I got the essay from my bed, intending to hand it in early to hopefully get on the good side of my new teacher. My brother was sitting on the foot of the stairs sorting out his project, which I had a little inside laugh about. My parents were sitting in silence so I assume that they had won the argument because they don't give in easy. I walked out the front door and as I shut it I felt the tiredness overwhelm me, I crawled round the side of the house to be out of site from my parents or people walking past. I laid my head on the fence and let myself drift into sleep instead of being forced.
When I opened my eyes again she was sitting on my knee with her hands on my shoulders.
"We don't have to go to school today its Saturday, shall we go a walk?"
I knew damn well it was only Tuesday but I couldn't wake up and go to school and I would certainly rather be with Sierra.
I got up and she must have assumed my answer because she hugged me and dragged me of with force and speed out the back gate and along the street. She turned and looked at me with slightly apologetic eyes.
"Will you shut your eyes for 20 seconds and not open until I say so"
She could have asked me to cut of my toes and watch her dog eat them for all I cared, I would have done it either way. I sighed and put my hand out for her to hold and shut my eyes. Her hand held mine tighter than I would have thought possible for a girl with hands so small. What happened next surprised me the most, she jumped, jumped downwards, catching me in both her arms, me who was so much larger than her. She slid me to the ground, with a giggle and waited for me to open my eyes. I was utterly bewildered, I didn't no what had just happened, but it was in my head so there was no reason why it couldn't. This scared me, it scared me because this shouldn't be happening, it scared me because this wasn't normal, this type of thing didn't happen or if it did everyone was bloody quiet about it. As I opened my eyes eye's I saw the look of concern in hers as she bit her bottom lip.
"I'm sorry I should have warned you about that"
"Its alright, but how could you do that, its because were in my dreams, or in my head or something like that right?" I said looking for reassurance. She shook her head.
"No, im in your head, im sorry I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't make you fall asleep like that, or put false memories in your head", as she spoke she looked like she was going to cry but I didn't no what to say to comfort her I just wanted to know more.
"how can you be in my head and no one else can?", I said sounding almost annoyed.
"Because I can do stuff that other people cant, you seemed so unhappy about Sempa and that girl so I decided to put happy things in your head, and more. I looked for a place to put things the more I fell in love with you", she looked like she was going to start crying but all that came out was what sounded like a terrified child.
"I want to be with you all the time, im selfish, I pull you out your day to day life to satisfy my desires"
I looked down at her, the sweet girl, she wasn't selfish, she might have looked like she was being selfish but to my eyes she was being true
"Your not selfish because my desires are the same as yours" I said this as steadily as I could even though I was shaking all over. She turned her face up to look at me, her eyes full of tears and her smile a size that would have hurt.
I fell backwards, leaning against a wall of some sort of chamber that we jumped into (I think). She followed me, falling forward on to me, her arms round my neck, and mine on her thighs. Are lips once again touched, touched with more meaning, touched as if it represented something, it was something that no one else could feel but us. It was as if nothing could take this moment away. Her hair fell against, my shoulders as she was now cradled in my arms with hers around my neck. Are lips parted her head rested on my shoulder. I stood in silence listening to the sound of her heavy breathing, these moments were important to her I knew it and even more so to, me. This was something I wished we could in forever, but I knew I would have to return soon, I only wished she could come back with me but I dared not to ask her, in fear of the answer.
