Chapter 6
By the time I got home it was quite late, I must have sat there for hours staring at that name. The same name that went round and round in my head, Sierra Namen, Sierra Namen. I walked up the stairs towards my bedroom as silently as I could as my parents and hopefully brother were still in bed. As I layer my head down on the pillow and the name went through my head I let me eyes close and I took in a deep breath.
"Sierra Namen" I sighed, and as I did I felt a small fragilely framed body clinging to the left of my body and an arm wrapped round my right shoulder.
"Yes?" she asked looking up at me with huge space-full eyes and as large a smile filled her face. I jumped as I heard her voice.
"Your name is on a grave stone, why is it there?" I asked sounding as steady as an over weight cat hiding up a tree from a dog.
"I'm not dead, if that's what you mean, I can still walk around and talk and touch and eat and drink" she said sounding rather upset.
I put my arm up over hers sensing her discomfort on the situation as I knew this next question would not be a welcoming one but one I had to know none the less.
"Well why are you only in my head?
Cant I you see me in the world instead of in are own?" I said as harmlessly as I could.
She sat up looking at me as if I had just asked her to take Speed. I felt her nails dig into my shoulders and before I could shout, I woke up, lying on my bed with only minutes missed. A great weight of guilt hit my shoulders as I lay there, unable to sleep watching the wind shaking the trees slightly less than green leaves outside my window. I couldn't believe that she had just left, I didn't even no if she would come back, or if she did come back would she be mad?
But what if she did come out of my head, what would happen?
These questions buzzed round in my head like a bee buzzing round in the wrong hive.
By morning I still hadn't slept, I could hear dad down the stairs complaing about the news. As I got out of bed and looked in the mirror I groaned due to the fact I looked like Id just been dug out my grave. I pulled up some cloths out the floor of the wardrobe and ended up looking like I was going to work in a dump site but I was too upset to give a shit. I walked out my room and looked in to Sempa's, he was lying there just staring at a poster on his ceiling. Like the lifeless corpse that Sierra should be. I felt bad for him but then again envious because he wasn't the one who destroyed what he had with Nakuia the girl just wasn't into him. At least he wasn't the retard that ended a relationship because he wanted something that was pointless. God I felt idiotic.
As I walked down the stairs I was met by concerned looking parents.
"Sempa and you are being very strange at the moment, and id appreciate if you got him and yourself in at an appropriate time on a school night" stated my mother as if we were fourteen. I nodded as I grabbed my bag that hung over the banister. I jumped from the stair onto the wooden floor and as I hit it, it hit me back like a car as I remembered falling onto it and being awoken my Sierra, my beautiful Sierra that I lost. As I recovered I walked out the front door slamming it behind me with tears in my eye acting as though i had just been told to leave home.
I started walking towards school, and started realising how stupid I looked, brown flairs and a grey surf top, high fashion was today's opposite matching my tangled hair. On the bright side I assumed this might put people off trying to talk to me but as bloody usual; I was wrong. And like I didn't need more guilt, I felt Nakuia;s arm link around mine as I was entering the gates.
"Long time no see dear" She said with an innocent smile.
"Hi, I hope your hear to ask how Sempa is?" I said forgetting about my ushual politeness out of anger.
She looked down at my tripping shoe lase and sighed.
"Im sorry I realised something when I was with him, and I no I meant a lot to him but It would have been wrong to keep with him, and besides we cannot control who are heart falls for".
As she said this, my anger faded, it didn't matter how bad it was for him and how much pain it caused she was right, she had done the right thing.
"Do you want to hear what I realised?" she said walking in front of me blocking my path and blushing.
"I already know" I said almost shouting as I pushed her aside forcefully and marched off towards reg.
It seemed everyone knew what had happened with Sempa, and no one seemed to be too happy about it. Seems they also knew about why she left him and who. Which of coarse was just what I needed, a bunch of halfwits giving me glares all day as if it was my fault.
I tuned out and pretended they were all smiling, which didn't work to my advantage as I often forgot that it was just my imagination and found my stupid self smiling back. They probably just thought I was being cocky, which to be perfectly honest I bloody well felt like doing. My first to classes were a double period of English which I was thankful for as my usual teacher was off and she had left us the instructions to pick a book to read for an essay that was due at the end of the month. As I was sitting there Nakuia entered the class to ask about using the printer. As she did someone threw there pencil at her and other shouted at her, obviously taking Sempas side on a debate unrelated to there life's that they still saw fit to be involved with.
She shielded the pencil of with the door then stormed off out of the room wit h tears turning the light blue carpet dark.
God knows why but I felt it was my duty to go off after her, and with out a word said I got up a left my chair walking down the corridor after her.
".Nakuia, come here!" I shouted causing a few people in the corridor to turn round, and look at me as she walked left, exiting the school. I ran after her like a lost puppy but to be honest there was no point going back into class, id probably just get ripped for running after her.
As I got outside I saw her sitting on a bench under a tree stump, the tree recently been cut down due to it realising toxic gases or something like that.
I sat down next to her and put my hand round her shoulder feeling rather uncomfortable. Her head hit my shoulder.
"Im so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your brother and I didn't mean to cause you these problems" she wept breathing unsteadily onto my arm
"Don't be, it's not your fault, as you said it's not your fault who you fall for"
my voice was mellow, and quiet, felt a lump in my throat. I wanted Sierra, she would no what to say to her, she would know what to say to me. I wanted her to be sitting on my lap asking me to read to her or asking me questions, just anything, as long as she was with me. But no I had to do this on my own.
"I know this is the wrong time to say this Syuka but I think im in love with you". As she said this it hit me hard, as though it wasn't a car hitting me this time, it was a bus.
"Nakuia im so sorry, but my heart has been taken and" before I could finish she butted in screaming
"Yes I know it has, by my fucking sister!" she sprinted out of my arms and across to the gates jumping over it managing the Hawthorne High sigh shake as she did so leaving me sitting like a widow sitting in there husbands bed room.
How could this be?
How could someone who was in my head be Nakuia sister. Millions of possibilities ran through my head but one thing appeared to be certain. Sierra lived near me but more importantly Sierra was real.
