For the Heart Catcher (2015)

17. If I Weren't Afraid

If I weren't afraid, I would scream your name

And tell you the truth, like I've never done

If I weren't afraid, I'd kiss you right now

Shame and regret, no, I would feel none

If I weren't afraid, I'd smile like I knew

What I was doing, but I really don't

I would tell you I loved the colour of your eyes

I stopped myself before, but this time I won't

If I weren't afraid, I'd pull you in close

To whisper those three precious words in your ear

I wouldn't hesitate, not even for a second

Cause I would no longer have anything to fear

If I weren't afraid, I'd tell you right now

This poem was for you, the light of my soul

But if you weren't afraid, you would tell me too

All the things that you've always been able to control

It could be anything, if you love me or hate me

If you want me to stay away, then just tell me that

Or it could be something small, that'd be okay too

It's better than silence and pretentious little chats

All the things that I'd do if I weren't afraid

Why am I afraid? What do we have to lose?

I just hope that one day I could maybe be brave

Enough to at least whisper you the truth

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Early this year, there was a quote written on a window in my school that said, "What would you do if you weren't afraid?" I think I wrote this during a bazaar day at school, and I was extremely bored, and I sat at the café and wrote on my phone. And actually, this one is about a specific someone (the fourth guy in Dear Loved One if you were wondering again), which rarely happens since I never can focus on one person when I'm writing something.