You and Me still hurts- book 1 - Lawson Fanfic

Part 16

We arrived at the show late as usual but we were greeted by about 20 Lawson fans outside. It was nice to see the boys with their fans, they really did care about them.

After taking photos and signing autographs we finally made our way backstage. The boys started setting up so I just sat ontop of a speaker and watched them. I was in the middle of daydreaming and thinking about my feelings I had for Ryan and Joel when a hand was placed on my shoulder, I turned around to see it was Gina. She explained to me as she was upset after having an argument with Andy and just needed a shoulder to cry on and got carried away with Joel. "Gee you don't need to appologize! I forgive you, just go speak to Andy." she walked over to him and hugged him, then they went off for a bit to chat.

Joel and Andy went to the van to fetch some equiptment when Ryan came over and sat next to me. At first he didn't say anything then he turned to face me, "I love you! Do you know that? I've always loved you!" I didn't know what to say so I just turned to face him and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

Deep down I knew I had feelings for Ryan, feelings I couldn't explain but I was with Joel, I couldn't just drop everything and run off with Ryan!

I got up and made my way to the van to go get a bottle of water. Maybe a drink would help me calm down.

I got to the van and froze. Joel had his hands all over a blonde 18 year old girl! How? When? Why would he do that? Just only acouple of hours ago he was kissing me and hand his hands all over me! But it looks like he can drop everything and run off with some random girl!