Tears Stole The Heart

Chapter 7

After heading home and having my dad's delicious chicken noodle soup, I told Jin Wei and Piper goodnight as I head upstairs to my room, you know, finishing up homework.
During dinner, dad decided to talk about how I would be so scared of the basement when I was little, and how I would cry because He wants his daddy.
Thanks dad, for making me the laughing stock, every day, but I don't really mind, well it made Piper and Jin Wei smile, so its worth it.
I don't know why, but it's as if every time a party ends, or after a meetup with friends, I feel a part of me is empty.
It was about 9 pm when I finished showering and actually began on my homework, and I did check occasionally, (or every five minutes) on my phone, waiting for a message, not to mention the frequent rounds of going down the stairs for chicken noodle soup. And by the time I partially finished that huge pile of homework, it was about 11 pm, and by that time my eyes felt as heavy as a bowling ball. I then convinced myself it was okay to take a nap.
As I drifted to sleep, I told myself Just five minutes, Just five minutes.....
As I was asleep, I dreamed of something so epic:
I was one of the Avengers, I wasn't sure who I was, because I was wearing Iron Mans suit but holding Thor's hammer at the same time, but that's okay, I can be both of them. I was fighting off all of the bad guys and it was epic, with the rest of the Avengers next to me, I was unstoppable. But then, just when all of this hadn't have a chance to officially start, my dream suddenly changed. I was in some dream inside a dream, it was incredibly peaceful, with some background music playing softly (I couldn't remember the tone of it but if I did remember it it would have been the best classical piece EVER)
I was floating, my body felt so light, this feeling was absolutely awesome, I felt so relax, so at ease. I could see bubbles floating above me, and I could see the breath taking horizon as it contained many tones of purple, pink, and orange, kind of cold tones, but it made me feel so warm.
I tried to move my hand to touch the bubbles, but it seemed like my body wouldn't move. I eventually gaven up, because the world I was in was so peaceful, it spoke to my brain louder than how my brain speaks to me.
Is this how its like dying? Like you can feel everything around you, and you have a choice to go back or stay, but death looks so beautiful, and the world your in is much more better than the real world with a whole lot of problems. That you allow death to take you to another place.
Well I don't know, I never died before, obviously. Everything was so peaceful, until SHE came in my dream.
Oh no the conscious side of me said No, your not welcomed here, please go away but the dream is still not changing. That was what it was saying but my dream was not listening.
'Bryan...' the faint image of her said weakly.
NO WHAT THE HELL YOU DOING HERE GET OUT I longed to scream.
She was wearing a white lace dress with ruffled ends, it made her look like an angel. But she ain't no angel, she is a demon.
'Since the day you left, I never once was happy.' She said in the most persuading voice.
Holy crap no don't bring me back to hell
'I know I don't deserve it.' She said while looking at her feet. 'But stay with me a minute, I swear I'll make it worth it.'
No, I can't.
All of a sudden, the dream got sucked into another dimension, and I was no longer in floating position, I was standing, completely aware of what was happening. (Which sucked because I want to jump out of this dream right now)
I was in my room, dressing up for a date. As I was filled with excitement, I checked my phone to text my boo
Babe you better be ready xoxo
She then replied a few minutes later
Your such a cute idiot. I'm already here, waiting for you babe.
Damn, she was so good at catching me off guard, and her texts never failed to give me butterflies in my tummy.
I was wearing the shirt she bought for me, a denim shirt, couple edition, and the words 'She Is Mine' were printed in front. I sprayed my cologne and took a last glance in the mirror.
Not bad, stunning indeed.
I picked up my 'lucky box', at least I thought it was lucky, and I whispered to it:
Bless you for bringing me such good luck aka Alexis!
I walked out of the house and I saw Piper in her little cottage aka store room. She clearly had spotted me, but I just gave her a stern glance and walked away.
I'm not gonna let you or the squad ruin my day with my babe.
I took the bus and checked my phone. Mmhm, full battery, will have plenty of time to take some nice selfies with my babe.
I checked Facebook and Tumblr ahead of time, you know, just to have some ideas on the type of pictures I was going to take with her. We could, opt for the normal selfie, but posing every once awhile won't hurt.
It started to drizzle and then I realized I didn't bring my umbrella. Never mind, I'm sure Alexis has already brought an umbrella waiting for me.
The rain got heavier and heavier by the time I reached there. Instead of dreading the rain, I was so happy that it rained, maybe me and Alexis would have some time alone under the rain. Some romantic time together perhaps?
I got down the bus to the café, but I didn't see Alexis. I walked around the café five times, but I couldn't see Alexis. I was about to send her a text when I heard a buzz from my phone, she had sent me a text, it wrote:
Babe I saw you, I'm outside the café.
Immediately, I went out the café and I was looking for her like a 5 year old in the candy shop. We both agreed to wear our matching couple shirts, so I was also on the look for a denim shirt with the words: He Is Mine.
In the midst of the crowd, I spotted that shirt immediately, and I knew that long wavy dark coloured hair anywhere, I was so happy, I was filled up to the top . I walked up to call her, but then, another guy, wearing a shirt that wrote: I stole her, came and grabbed her by the waist, and gave her a playful kiss. I was so shocked by that situation, I barely had time to react, stupidly and awkwardly, I took another step up front, but I ended up tripping on the easel placed outside of the café that has soup of the day etc written on it, causing a ruckuss to the customers. She obviously saw me, but then she took off her denim shirt that had 'He's Mine' written on it, which revealed another shirt which wrote: I'm Stolen. She gave me a sarcastic laugh and walked away with him, under his umbrella.
Never in my life, had I felt so heartbroken, ashamed, and stupid. My brain just didn't even absorb what had happened, properly, but still, I managed to understand this situation briefly in my head.
I fell on my knees and allowed the rain to fall on me, I just wanted it to wash away my pain, that betrayal. Tears fell on the ground as well with the rain drops.
Suddenly I stopped feeling the rain drops on my back, I looked up and I saw the squad, Piper, Jason, Daniel and Jin Wei. Daniel was holding an umbrella over me, while they all had their own. He got down and grabbed me by the shoulder, and told me 'Its Ok'.
Jin Wei and Piper already had seemed pissed off, but by the time Jin Wei checked her phone again it just made her and Piper even more furious.
Aha, look who's laughing now, Bryan a voice hissed.
No, no, I don't want to go through that heartache again, No...Go away....
'Go away!' I screamed.
I woke up with a start, my lights still on, and my homework still on my table.
Awkwardly, I got up to check the time: 2:45 am.
I felt sticky. Sweat was running down my forehead, my hands were cold and sweaty and my face was pale.
Its not being dramatic, its TRUE. This ain't something from a movie, I really got up like how Mia got up in the middle of the night during the movie Annabelle.
I felt horrified, like a part of me was missing. All my energy was strained and sucked out of my body, and what was left was just a human body with very little life left in it. Its like after you got traumatized over the horror over your first day of school at kindergarten (don't lie you were scared mate), its like after a marathon, panting, sweating and tired, all you could think of was sleeping to relieve your sore body. But this feeling, once you get this feeling, you don't know what you want to do or crave to relieve this feeling.
Its not like when your tired, and you know you want to go to bed. Its not like during History class, and you know your not going to pay attention. Its not like during an all nighter, and you swear your going to burn that shit up after finals.
It's that terrible feeling of emptiness, that has no relieve, you don't know, what to do next.
Still panting, I tried to calm the thoughts racing in my mind. They were everywhere, jumping and scooting around my brain, they were causing havoc there.
As my thoughts raced around in despair, my sharply gouged insecurities, hurt feelings pierced through my heart and brain merciless.
All the memories we created, was just the brief moment when we flared up like fireworks, we were bound to make people envious of our beautiful sparks, but we ended up with an eternal burn that can't be cured.
Alexis a voice inside of my head hissed.
What the hell, no, stop thinking of her! I screamed inside of myself, as I let the pain seep through the scars she left.
You two almost had it all you know it continued.
Suddenly, I calmed down, thoughts settled down, I actually heard that voice inside of my head, tears rolled in my eyes uncontrollably.
Think about the times you called her babe, think about the times you hugged her, think about the times you would recess together, laugh together...... You, Almost Had it All, Bryan Walker. You were in this perfect relationship, you cared for each other, you had her.
But, it ended, because of you.
A cold wave of panic and hurt rushed through my body, its like a cold eternal winter spell, casted on my body. You can feel the paralyzing feeling rushing through your body, shutting off every system of your body, one by one. Memories flooded in along with this adredaline.
No! No! Stop!!!!!Enough!!
Soon, I found myself with my knees on the floor, with both hands covering my ears, and tears running down my cheeks.
Its your fault Bryan. Its not her fault she got involved with another man...... you deserved it. The voiced hissed before it dissolved into thin air.
'Its all my fault......' I said while swallowing my tears.
'Its all your bloody fault.' I said it louder, but I could feel my heart disintegrating into a million broken pieces, and it felt as if it was leaving my body. 'Its all your fault!' I cried alas, with tears pouring out.
'Its all..... my fault......' I sobbed, with my hands now pounding my chest.
I really hope Alexis could see how much torture I am going through now. a part of me thought
Maybe, just maybe, she will come running back to me, with tears, and a willing heart, to love me again.
But this is just what half of me wants.
That dream reminded me about my lucky box, I took it out and stared at it for awhile.
What does the other half of me want?
I really couldn't stand being in my room alone, anymore. I headed downstairs, to make myself a cup of coffee.
I know you'd be thinking like: Whoa, coffee just makes you awake! But trust me, coffee calms me down, always, its my go-to de-stresser.
Well it is 3 am in the morning, and I can't do anything I would usually do during the day (like going to the park, it would be HORRIFYING to see a swing swinging without anybody on it). So I just headed out to the garden/mini porch/ tiny patch of grass, whatever you want to call it, to be accompanied by the calming floral scent.
Yes I know I'm weird, I'd rather be accompanied by flowers and the nightlife rather than waking Jin Wei and Piper up, but it would be so weird, and I'm a boy, how weird would it to be if I were to wake them up, they would be horrified, and what's my reason? Psch I'm just bored you know, don't be bothered for the fact it is like 3 am, and I'm near your bed waking you up, and I'm looking like a maniac, and for the fact I am a boy. No just don't worry.
Well yeah, and the next day I will be at court being justified for adultery.
I looked around my surroundings, it was so calming, and gradually, that helped my mood that has been emotionally destroyed. I was on the urge of calming myself down, until a flashback of that dream came back to me, and instantly, tears were flowing down, again. I buried myself into my knees, with my arms wrapping around them.
BUT SUDDENLY, SUDDENLY, SOMEONE SAID.
'Hey.'
A whole bunch of swear words came to my mind, I think every swear word you could possibly say in 1 hour was displayed in my mind and that split second. Every muscle in my body tensified, like it is preparing for a dangerous situation. And my brain started analyzing everything:
1. There is someone saying hi to me (at 3 am)
2. This person's voice is coming from my right side (Piper's house is there, but its empty)
3. It's a fullmoon (shit, but its definitely not a werewolf, which is sad actually, I want to be friend's with werewolves)
4. I can smell a hint of lemon grass arising too (maybe a lemon grass is talking to me?)
5. THIS IS 100% A GIRLS VOICE
ANNALYSIS COMPLETE, ALERT ALERT, DAMN YOU THIS IS A GHOST ALERT. RUN, WHY AREN'T YOU RUNNING??
P.S. all of this takes place in that split second, and yes I think I'm secretly a genius but just for the fact my brain goes dead when I'm taking my exam's.
'Holy crap!! Our Almighty Father!!!!!!' I screamed. (Dude you can't blame me, its 3 am and you're only lying if you say you aren't scared if you were me)
'What the hell you nuthead.' The girls voice seamed louder and clearer. 'Booo I'm a ghost and I've came to take your soul no supernatural force can save you now.' She said while imitating a ghost voice (In a not scary way), which made me feel so stupid, even though I was still scared, her voice sort of calmed me down a little bit.
I could see her face more clearly now, she was wearing a black long sleeve hoodie. But my vision of her face was just blurred. I'm sorry, I'm not blessed with night vision x ray eyes.
'Dude I'm seriously not a ghost, I don't penetrate through fences.' She said as she attempted to push her hands through the fence separating me and Piper's house. It didn't penetrate through. (I was quite relieved to be honest)
'Ask anyone if they would get scared if someone, at 3 am, wearing a hoodie, at they're neighbor's house, which SO happened to have traces of a murder recently says hi to them.' I sounded pissed off.
I wasn't pissed for the fact that she scared me, I was pissed that I actually even thought she was a ghost, I was pissed for being so stupid.
How could you be more stupid Bryan.
'Point accepted.' She said as she pulled her hoodie, revealing her hair.
It was dark brown, very similar to black, with purple highlights, and her bangs covered half of her right eye and cascades in the right remaining portion of her face, covering her cheekbones and it tails down at her chin.
'Oh.' My tone sounded flat. 'You're the new girl?'
'As a matter of fact, yeah. Nice to meet you, Bryan.' She took my hand and shook it.
'Whoa.' The fact that she knew my name made the unlogical side of me even more positive that she is some vampire who reads palms and predicts the future. 'You're hella creepy.'
'I know right. Destiny made me creepy. You'd probably be thinking I'm a vampire who's going to be sucking your blood after I made my grand entrance.'
'Correction. I would describe you as a 'palm reading' and a 'future predicting' vampire.'
'Well, it is a full moon.' She looked at the moon.
'Holy shit your going to suck my blood.' I said this, with half of me joking, and half of me suspecting she is still a vampire.
'Haha, sorry, you know as a mere mortal I'm sadly not granted and allowed to suck anyone's blood' she joked.
'Yeah, well you really could qualify as a vampire, though.'
'Well thanks man. I'm not that seductive to be one though. And I would much rather be a ghoul, you still can drink coffee with meat cubes. And you get a kagune.'
'You watch Tokyo Ghoul?' I asked surprisingly, since people who watch anime tends to get discriminated a lot in our school, they prefer the traditional cartoons, Disney channel.
'Kaneki is bae!' She said excitedly.
I laughed. It's so hard to find a girl who likes anime nowadays, most of them are just about tumblr and being all girly, while Tokyo Ghoul, is seemingly bloody and violent to be honest.
'I mean seriously, he has the looks, gives me the feels. He's a badass, but he does it so good.' she continued fangirling.
'Well the appearance of anime characters and kpop idols are the main reason for us guys to be single.'
'Of course! They don't make them stars for nothing you know? If you guys were like them, every girl would be in heaven.' She scowled.
'Oh.' She suddenly said. 'Your single?'
That question struck me hard, not to mention I was an emotional wreck for the past 1 hour. I could instantly feel the sorrow flowing back to me.
'It's ok.' She must've sensed there was something wrong (or for the fact my tears might burst out of my eyeballs any second) 'I saw you just now before I fulfilled my lifelong dream of being a vampire for one minute.' She joked
'Yeah. Thanks. It happened before the beginning of this semester, during term break, via text message I guess.' I answered briefly. I was too busy concentrating on controlling my tears, but I already shed a few.
I guess she was placed in a very awkward situation, since there is a boy you barely knew crying in front of you. And the words 'its ok' just don't help.
'Emotions shouldn't be described by words. It's meant to be felt. That's why breakup via text messages are the worst.' 'Sorry.'
'Ah, there's no reason to be sorry. Well she was a bitch, it wasn't my loss. I should be sorry, I'm someone you barely know and I'm crying in front of you, shit.' I was obviously crying.
'Hey.' She said. 'Listen. Just do what I say, okay?'
Confusedly, I nodded.
'Look up. Cross your eyes twice then make circular emotions in your eye sockets, then look down.'
Without knowing why I did this, (though an idea popped out at the back of my head, it was so she could prepare a surprise and Alexis would appear) I just followed her instructions, and a few minutes later I found the tears stopped forming physically, and I was distracted about Alexis because I was concentrating on crossing my eyes.
'Wow.' I said being fairly impressed. 'Your something.'
'Just an old school trick.' She smiled. 'Your lucky you have the freedom and choice to cry.'
'How is crying a choice, and not to mention it is not lucky.'
'Crying over what's passed is good. It means you have the guts to put yourself back in that situation and face it again.' 'Some people can't afford to do that, because they're traumatized.'
Being the idiot I am, I barely even knew what she was saying. But it kind of made sense.
'You sounded like you've led a life of tears.' I said trying not to sound sarcastic. I mean me, myself, I think I've led a tough love life to be honest. Piper led a tough life too. I mean, how can there be even more torturous lives out there?
She laughed.
'I'm afraid I'm not previllaged to cry.'
'What do you mean by that?'
'Forget it.' She stood up. 'I gotta leave soon, it's gonna be four am soon. Just, don't wipe your tears with her handkerchief, it doesn't help.'
'Hey.' I said over the fence. 'What's your name?
'Scarlett.' She smiled. 'Scarlett Morgan.'
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