A Marriage of Thorns!!!

Chap-22

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ZAIN'S POV

I stared at the screen. The words and the numbers appeared jumbled before me. To say I am angry at myself is a big understatement. My actions are hurting me and I am angry at that. I was lost. There are pile of problems before me but my every move is making it only worse. What I did is unforgivable. I don't know what is stopping me from making amends. I've the fear of messing up again. Like I always do.

"Earth to loverboy!" Hassan's voice dragged me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?"

He had his trademark smirk with a mischievous glint in his eyes. Not a good sign, but I'm least interested in any of his comments. Without paying much heed to him, I resumed my work, zoning out every now and then. Concentration was last thing to come to me.

"Missing Kashaf, eh?" He wiggled his eyebrows.

I didn't respond. His words had some truth though its for a different reason.

He spoke again "Didn't gave a goodbye kiss?" Hassan is among those persons whose favorite job is to tease and his main target is always me.

"Will you ever be quiet for a second?" I snapped out.

"Ooh....someone's in a bad mood. Had a fight?" He came forward placing his hand in the table.

I sighed leaning back on the back. "Its more than that"

"What happened?" His face became serious.

I spread my hands through my face. "I accused her of Ibaad" Guilt was eating me.

"You did what?" His voice boomed with anger. "Were you fucking out of mind?"

"It was a mistake" I made a vain attempt of defending myself.

"You call accusing and suspecting your wife a mistake?" He let a humorous laugh. "Can you tell me what made you do that?"

"She was being close Ibaad. I mean kinda talked with him. I don't know what made me think that" I was feeling guilty. I was feeling bad. The words I said affected me too and I can't imagine what it would have done to her.

"You suspected her because she just "talked" with him. Are you an idiot?" The anger in him was rising and I know where it would lead.

My ego which I deliberately protected in every argument came up. "She knows how much I hate him still she kept on meeting him" I'm the one with mistake but like always I wanted to hide it, which is an utter waste with Hassan. He knows me too well to identify the truth I never stopped her from meeting that man. I have just made my assumptions about her.

"You know its nothing like that. Kashaf will never do that" I nod at his words. My whole heart knows that Kashaf would never do that, I don't know what was wrong with my brain to say such thing. I scorn the very idea of him being with her and that very sight boiled my anger.

"Then why the hell you do that? He hissed. Hassan despises Ibaad more than me. More than anyone. His hatred is like he would basically kill him with his bare hands. "You know what he did to her, right?"

I clenched my fist at his words. "How can you stoop so low like him?"

"I am not like him" I gritted back. I can never be Ibaad- a sadist,  manipulator and a backstabbing bastard.

"Your family lost the alliance with mine whilst we almost lost our friendship, Zain. Still haven't you learnt your lesson?"

I grit my teeth. "What I did was wrong. I am feel bad for that. I even apologized to her once and I'll do it this time too. I should have not accused my wife, this doesn't give you any right to equate me to that scum"