My New Life (Sequel to Adopted By Janiel)

Chapter Ten

It's the next morning and Allison is still sleeping soundly beside me.

However, I'm beginning to panic as I fall extremely weak and feel like I've been shot every time I move.

Screw it.

"Joey! Daniel!" I call to the boys in the bed next to us.

Both spring up, Daniel in his boxers and Joey in an oversized shirt, the Sharpie moustache still on from last night with Trevor at Ohana.

Allison turns onto her side and I beg her not to move anymore, sobbing.

Tyler and Shane run in, Tyler instantly grabbing Dylan for comfort.

"What's wrong, baby girl?" Daniel asks in a soft voice, his hand falling to my cheek.

"I'm sorry, Daniel. I'm having trouble fighting" I let out a shaky breath. "I'm so weak and everything hurts"

"Everyone out. Please, everyone out" I give Allison a nod in approval.

The room is soon empty and the door is shut.

"What do you mean baby? Is it like you don't want to go out today or you can't hang on any longer?"

"I feel like I'm fighting too hard, Daniel. I feel like I've given Dylan four months of his life. And I feel like Allison's had a good 12 or 13 years with me. I know you and Joey and Shane and Tyler have had an amazing two. I feel like I've given this life all I could, and I feel like there's nothing more that in this state I could accomplish. I brought Dylan to Disney, and now I can barely move. There's nothing left that I can do in this life now. It's time to move on to the next" I sob out my explanation, voice constantly breaking.

"What do you want to do, baby? It's all up to you. You can either go to the hospital here or we could fly back home and go to your normal one there. How long can you hold on?"

"I won't let myself die until I'm home. I won't let go until then"

"What would you like to wear? F-For your dressing" Daniel lets a few tears lose.

"I want to wear my "Half a Heart" tee and black sweatpants. I want my sneakers and my black on black beanie. No wigs, Daniel, please. Is that okay?"

"Whatever you'd like is perfect baby"

"Do me a favor, Danny?"

"Anything for you, baby"

"Bury me with an album. Any album. Just bury me with an album"

"I will, Cassie. I will" Daniel swallows, cheeks red from the tears. "Anything else?"

"Tell Joey's fans. And Tyler's fans. And Shane's fans. Tell them they're welcome. I want to be able to meet all your fans" Daniel lets out a sob.

"I love you baby girl. I'm always going to love you no matter what. I only want you to fight as long as you can. If you can't hold on any longer. Don't. Let go whenever you need" I nod and Daniel hugs me even though he knows I can't return it. He sighs deeply and squeezes me once before popping me a few pills and leaving to get a plane.