The Perfect Moment

Part Nine

"When I left you the last time I was completely heartbroken, again, like I always am. I knew I wouldn't be seeing you for almost a year, and I also knew that I couldn't deal with that, so I got myself someone who was looking for the same things I was, to keep myself occupied," he said in embarrassment.

"I needed sex, Andrea, and I knew I couldn't have it with you in a year, and my body couldn't deal with that, so I cheated. I knew there was no point in waiting, so the first thing I did when I came back to America, I hooked up with someone. I then decided I'd tell you I was breaking up, because I couldn't stand the thought of actually cheating with you, baby. I never wanted to hurt you, but I've already done that, and I'm aware of that," he finished.

I cried again. Gee why was I crying so much?

"But why did you tell me you had been cheating for a long time, when you only had done it once?" I asked in tears.

"Because I needed a good reason to break up with you, so that you'd hate me and not want to get back together with me" he explained ashamed.

"But if it makes you feel any better, the girl I hooked up with left me too, and left me in a bad position. I was thinking of you constantly, and hurting all the time, baby. I even decided I wouldn't have sex with anyone, not even my own hand until I got to do it with you. When I found out about the baby, I was happy, because then I had a reason to talk to you again," he added.

"So you're telling me you want to get back together so you can satisfy yourself?" I asked, now annoyed. He was so close to getting me to believe him again, but blew it off.

"No," he sighed again, clearly disappointed.

"I realized that with the girl in America I was just having sex, but every time I was with you, I was making love, and I wanted to make love, not have sex" he explained. Now I had nothing more to say.

"What are you thinking about?" he asked after a little while, bringing me back to reality.

"Can we go back inside, I'm cold" I said carelessly. He agreed and lead me back inside.

"Do you think there could be an us?" he then asked.

"I don't know, to be honest. I mean, I get why you needed to get your frustration out somehow, but I didn't like the way you dealt with it. I hate the idea that you've been sleeping with another girl, while I've been here struggling for life," I told him. I was on, my way to forgive him. I didn't want to let things got this easy, but my heart forced me to. I had always loved him.

"I know, your mum told me about everything, and it broke my heart that you were struggling like that. That isn't the confident Andrea I know," he said.

"The confident Andrea you know took a long break when she found out the love of her life cheated on her, but she's back on top now, with a little princess of a daughter in her arms," I said, starting to eat my toast. He looked shocked.

"The love of your life?" he asked confused. Shit, did I just say that?

"Yeah, I loved you Luke. You'll always have your spot in my heart," I explained. He rushed up from his chair, around the table. He grabbed my head and kissed me in one quick move. The butterflies inside of me went crazy.

"And that feeling inside me right now shows that I still love you," I smiled. I looked down on my feet as he walked back around the table, unsure if what he just did was a good idea.

"I love you so much, Andrea!" he cheered, on his way to lean over the able this time, to kiss me again. The baby stopped him though. His cheerful comment was so loud it actually woke her up. I laughed.

"Wow Luke" I teased him, and he hurried over to grab the baby. I prepared the milk and handed it over when it was done. I approached them both, and remembered what I was supposed to say earlier.

"Next time you're leaving, can you please not break up with me and sleep with another girl?" I asked, almost in a funny way. It was a bit funny that he needed sex so much he broke up with the love of his life to have sex with someone else.

"Deal" he said straight away, making me laugh.

"I love you, you fool" I finished before I leaned over to kiss him.

"Thank you for forgiving me this quickly," he then said.

"I owe it to you," I said an blinked before I headed up the stairs to have a shower.

Coming back down about an hour later, I found Luke playing with her in the couch. I sat down in the stress-less next to them and watched them, laughing a little.

"You're such a great dad, Luke," I complimented him. "Thanks for spending so much time with her," I added.

"I should be the one thanking you for letting me spend time with my daughter. Not all fathers doing what I did get to do this," he reminded me.