Why me? (MCR)

Chapter 4

James' p.o.v.
A shocked Frank came walking back around the corner. "What is it buddy?" Mikey asked casually, trying to lighten the mood, I assume. Frank mumbled something inaudible, causing Ashley, who had just got here, to snort as he sat down. "C'mom Frank!" He nudged his shoulder, "What have I missed?" Frank sighed in annoyance, "Jade's my sister," he choked out. "Wh-what?" I stuttered, half in shock and half in anger. "So you're just now waiting to tell us this?!"

He shook his head, "No I literally just found out. I gave blood for her surgery, and I'm guessing the doctors ran some tests for some unknown reason. She just blurted it out and acted like I was a dummy for not knowing it," we sat in silence for a bit before I spoke up with a question I knew would affect Jade, Frank, and my emotions. "So, is she gonna stay in the orphanage, or what?" They looked at me weirdly before Frank asked, "What're you talking about, James?"

I sighed, "You know how I told you about my new roommate at the orphanage?" They nodded, motioning for me to continue, "It's Jade. And her dog," I added just as the doctor came around the corner. "Jade Winter?" We nodded, "She just got out of surgery, it went well, no worries. However, she's unconscious, but stable, which is a good thing. You can visit her if you want to," he walked away as we all stood up and headed quickly toward her room.

She looked so pale . . . it was hard for me to see her like this. I think I might like Jade as more than a friend, random thought to have I know, which is bad for me because it could ruin my friendships. Jade, Frank, Mikey, Ash, everyone.

Why do I always get into these situations? I just hope she's ok. There's a little color in her usually pale face, which is a good thing because if she was completely pale, I'd think she really was dead.

But she's not dead, so stop thinking of morbid things. She starts trying to reposition herself and I snap out of my thoughts. She opened her eyes and looked around the room, making eye contact with everyone and smiling happily. But her smile fell as she searched the room for the person who was missing. "Where's Gerard?"

Gerard's p.o.v.
I did feel bad for leaving Jade at the hospital, but I've already hurt her enough. I don't need to go tripping over the hospital wires and make something fall over that she needs or make something fall on her. I sighed, I might as well go see her though. I walked silently to the hospital, which was a very bad place for me to be. They have needles. Ugh needles. I shuddered and walked up to the front desk, "Jade Winter?" I asked the receptionist quietly. "Room 304," was her loud response. Really? Only one person asked, not the whole room.

I found the room easily and knocked before walking in. Jade's tired eyes lit up when she seen me. "Why'd you leave?" She asked, she sounded a bit upset actually. Weird. I shrugged, not wanting to hurt her feelings or make her mad. I might be unemotional 99% of the time, but I really do care about her. I don't know why I care so much, though, which scares me.

Why else would I be concerned about how much I've hurt her? "It's a lifelong wait for a hospital stay to be over isn't it?" James asked, changing the subject quickly. "Ain't it though," she agreed, and I smiled, not a big smile, but a small smile.

I noticed how James' smile looked almost fake . . . it didn't reach his eyes. I wonder what's upsetting him. Not that I particularly care, I just notice the tiny things like that. Frank seems to have a lot of worry in his eyes, my brother is just happy she's ok, and same for Ray and Ashley. And I'm the awkward one standing to the side, not wanting to hurt anyone. She looked over at James and smiled, but soon seen what I seen, that his smile wasn't reaching his eyes.

"What's wrong James?" Jade asked him and he shrugged, "Nothing, just thinking." She took his hand and he blushed a little. Something stirred inside of me, but I can't explain what emotion it is. It can't be jealousy, I'm not even her friend! I mean I want to be, but I can't and I can't be anything else to her and just . . . no, it's not jealousy, I finally decided as everything started calming down. We had to leave soon after that, but I still can't place what that emotion was.

~Poison👻