Why me? (MCR)

Chapter 18

Jade's p.o.v.
After my reunion with Gerard yesterday, I didn't ever wanna leave him again. But, I had to, and he had to make up the decision of going back to work or staying here. I think he decided to stay, instead of going back, mainly 'cause if he stayed I'd be here.

I applied for a job at a record label nearby about a month ago, and I never expected to hear from them again. But today, I was surprised to see that I had a phone call from that very record label. "H-hello?" I answered, stuttering slightly because I'm nervous.

"Hi, is this Jade Winter?" I nodded, but realized he couldn't see me so I answered, "Oh, um yeah that's me." He chuckled, "Calm down Miss Winter, you'll be fine. You've got the job." I smiled, "Thank you!" He replied with a 'your welcome' before hanging up.

It wasn't long before my phone began ringing again, this time it was Gerard. "Hey Gee, what's up?" I smiled, hoping that all bad news was gone for now. "Ok, one, we're starting a band... Me, Mikey, Frank, Ray and I. We just need a drummer." He began, the slight sorrow in his tone made me think there was another reason he's calling. "Also, my grandmas in the hospital. Can you drive me because I'm in no shape to drive and no one else is home."

I nodded, "Yeah, I'll be over as quick as I can." He mumbled a thanks before adding, "I love you Jade." He sounded close to tears and as I grabbed my stuff, I answered with, "I love you too Gee."

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When I pulled up at Gerard's, I hastily put the car in park and walked into his house. I went to his room, knocking quietly. "Gerard?" I heard shuffling inside, indicating he was coming to the door. When he opened it, I noticed his eyes were red and puffy, his whole face splotchy. I felt my heart shatter; I can't stand seeing him like this.

I stepped forward, throwing my arms around his neck, hugging him tightly (but gently). He hugged back, pulling me closer. I felt him shaking, whether he was cold or crying, I don't know, but I had a feeling as to which one it was. I just held on tighter, showing him it'd be ok.

A couple minutes later, he pulled away, swiping at his eyes, pulling on a small smile. "You ready?" I nodded, "Yeah, c'mon." I led him out to the car, which I'd left running, so at least it'd be warm. I looked over at Gerard when we stopped at the end of the driveway and grabbed his hand gently, "Hey, she'll be ok. I promise." He simply smiled in response and I continued driving.

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When we arrived at the hospital, Gee was walking at a fast pace so I nearly had to run to catch up with him. I eventually lost sight of him, only stopping my spring at the receptionist's desk. Apparently, Gerard had already gone to the room. "Hi, can I help you?" She asked politely, and I responded with, "Yeah, um... Elena Rush?" She nodded, "You're just behind another guy... She's room 406, just down the hall." I muttered a thanks as I walked by,

I headed to the room, knocking... Mainly because I'm not family and didn't wanna intrude. Mikey opened the door, seemingly surprised to see me, but smiled and hugged me anyway. I actually got the boy to smile.... Dang. "I didn't expect you to come," he said, confusing me. "I'm sorry what? I drove Gerard here." He nodded, shaking his head like 'why didn't I think of that'?

I smirked and walked in, surprising Donna and Elena. Gerard looked out the window, kind of worried. I didn't think it was out of the ordinary, but apparently not. Donna came over to me, hugging me, "Jade, I didn't expect you to come!" Gerard turned at the mention of my name, the worry washing off his face. After Donna let me go, he came walking up to me and hugging me, "Where'd you go, I thought you were right behind me?"

I glared playfully, "Barely! I nearly had to run to keep up with you!" He smiled sheepishly, "Sorry." I smirked, "It's ok, just learn to check behind you," I teased lightly, hoping to make some tension in the room go away. "Jade, long time no see!" Elena exclaimed from across the room, causing all of us to laugh. "Same to you," I walked over to her, "How've you been?" She smiled, "Alright except for this." She frowned at the IV in her arm and shuddered. Now I know where Gerard got his hatred/fear of needles from.

I walked back over to him, putting my arm around his waist as he slid his around my shoulders. He pulled me closer to him, making me feel a bit better, cause he knows I hate hospitals. I began messing with ha bracelet absentmindedly, not paying attention until he laughed quietly. I looked up at his amused expression before asking, "What?" He shook his head, "Funny how you chose the bracelet I gave you on Valentines Day."

I smiled, "Yeah. Out of so many bracelets, that particular one." He noticed how I said out of so many bracelets and he frowned, worry clouding his eyes. I realized where I'd messed up, and quickly tried to cover it but he wasn't buying it. IT was almost time for us to have to leave due to visiting hours almost being over. "Hey, mom, grandma, I think we're gonna head out. Love you." We walked past Mikey, "See ya," he said quietly but still loud enough to be heard.

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I followed Gerard into my house where he was gonna stay the night with Frank, Siren, and I. It was just us for now; Frank and Siren, now a couple, would be home later. Gee sat on the couch, worry still clear in his eyes. I sat next to him and he turned to face me. He looked torn between asking me if I had done what he suspected, or just leaving it be. I sighed; there was no way out of this one.

"Jade...." He began, finally making up his mind. I held his hand, telling him it was ok to continue. "Do you... Um.. You know.." He trailed off, not knowing what to say but I knew what he meant. He was trying to ask if i self harmed. I have to be honest with him... We've come too far for it to end in a big fight. I nodded sadly before finally choking out my answer, "Yes." He looked like he was fixing to cry, and I felt extremely guilty for that.

"But I'm 5 or 6 years clean." He perked up slightly, happy that I'd stopped. "The last time was when we had that huge fight when I told you to go away. Frank knows, but he's the only one, except for you, because I don't want our friends to hate me." He smiled sadly, pulling me in for a hug, "They could never hate you Jade." He pulled back before asking shyly if he could see them, so he could reassure himself that I'd stopped. It's not that he didn't believe me, he just wanted to prove to himself because he couldn't seem to believe it.

I slid off all the bracelets quickly, revealing my pale white arms. With light pink scars trailing up and down them. Or as some would say, my past, but I don't call it that because my last was too good to compare it to them. He rubbed his fingers over them, which kinda made me self conscious about them. I tried to reach for my bracelets again, but Gee stopped me. "Hey, don't be ashamed... I have some too, remember?" I nodded, remembering when he'd attempted suicide.

"Just please promise you'll try not to do that again. I know how hard it is to stop completely, so just try for now." I nodded, "You seem to be forgetting I've been stopped for years now, but I'll keep that in mind." He smiled and I returned it, "Love you Gee." His smile grew, "Love you too Jade." He put my bracelets on the table beside us and I reached for the one he gave me on Valentines Day and slipped it on. He smiled again and put his arms around my waist as I lay on him. We lay there like that for who knows how long until Siren and Frank got there. Now I've got to tell Siren.

Hope you guys liked it, sorry for my disappearance in my other stories I just really have to be in a 'writing mood' and I don't get those often so yeah..... Anyway, I will try to update them later on. Then again, all hell could break loose again and leave me so busy I can't. I dunno yet. Bai
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