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When everything 's meant to be broken.

Moon Rays were hitting behind the curtains that were slightly parted, caught in the darkness of the her deep sleep her breath has quickened to the agonizing torture of her dream, her palms sweating and tiny beads of sweat prickling down her Crimson cheeks. A quick breath hitches as she arose from her bed and in full tears. Her parted lips wanted to let out a scream of pain; 3:07am- the usual time she was up for her demons to fight her battle of wanting to harm herself.

Maya's POV
I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and for some reason I couldn't figure out why, I usually wake up feeling sleepless but today I feel relieved. I grabbed a fresh towel and headed toward the bathroom for a quick and refreshing shower. Passing by the mirror to take a quick look at myself I couldn't help but notice a deep red line spread across my thigh.

I forgot. That's why I felt so relieved today; we fought. Luke and I have been dating for almost 10 months now and we've gotten a little too comfortable with each other. The idea of him always thinking he's right because he's a few years older than I, does not give him the right to treat me like I'm too naïve for anything. We have disagree on many subjects and it seems to me that all he wants to do is see other people than me, sometimes I even wonder if he's still interested.

The cut seemed to have been very deep and could possibly leave an ugly scar, what was I thinking? Has life been this bad to me that all I know is how to hurt myself, I'm not perfect, I'm only human and all I want to do is fit in and be valuable to someone for once in my pathetic life. We used to be happy; I used to think we ruled the world.

He didn't come home that day, he slept over at Calum's house and I had to message him and it's like he read my mind, my phone buzzed with a message from him.

From: Luke 💘

Hey, we should talk about things. I feel a little fed up like all we ever do is be unfair to each other and this relationship is unhealthy for the both of us for all we seem to do is fight and disagree on almost everything. It seems to me that all you want to do is pick a fight over the simplest things. Why?

Well I certainly was not expecting this, I feel unwanted and Unloved so excuse me for having feelings.

To: Luke 💘
I'm sorry if I appear to be broken but that's because I am. You saw my appearance and personality when you first met me, my only solution to cope with life is harming myself and it's a habit that is hard to let go of; I told you from the beginning that I am broken and cannot be mended, I've told you that I will be a handful and I was right, I've also told you that you would leave me eventually and you seem to prove me right. Excuse me for having feelings and protecting myself from being hurt Luke, but I guess love hurts.

And on that note I couldn't help but feel criticized, I'm not beautiful and certainly since I'm not thin like every girl here in Australia but I had finally thought that someone would appreciate what I do and not what I look like, he was perfect for me, perhaps, a little too perfect.

I wanted to hurt myself badly but I just held on. Everything I've been through for the past years felt so surreal, I've been sold to a family I thought I would never have and I met this boy- he stole my heart and soul but why do I keep thinking that he wants to hurt me? Why do I have to be so negative all the time? I thought. A buzzing sound has interrupted me from my train of thoughts.

Messaging from: Luke 💘.

I wouldn't leave you when you need me the most, please understand what I'm coming from, I'm so caught up in everything and I know what you've been through but I can't imagine how you feel or felt and pain is inevitable in life and that's what I want you to understand, there might be very difficult moments in life that you'll just have to push through and when everything feels like it's broken I'll be there to fix it with you, every
single piece.

And on that line, my heart was filled with absolute warmth, I now know what happiness means and how it feels to be loved.
I do not deserve him but I absolutely do, I couldn't help but turn to my journal for another poem as usual.

Journal:
In case you didn't know, dead people don't bleed. If you can bleed-see it, feel it-then you know you're alive. It's irrefutable. Undeniable proof. Sometimes I just need a little reminder
That I am alive, that's what I thought... Pain is inevitable from life and I know exactly how it is to be in pain, someone loves me and I do not deserve his sweet sweet love but I do.

This was all I was able to write and on that note I had began to feel my eyelids become heavier with tiredness from the day's events, I drifted off into a complete ebony darkness sleep.

She was always alone, craving for love but only it wasn't love; it was pure lust. He was the classic fling; every girl knew his name. Who knew they would've come across each other? Completely different pair. No. They were not a pair because they were not in love but in lust; complete and utter lust, yeah they shared only one kiss but that didn't stop her imagination from running wild and very wildly they ran each and every night.

Panting, she was panting, grabbing the sheets in her sleep as the little bids of sweat were forming unto her forehead and her dream kept on, him. His bare back being clawed at by her finger nails. The profanities escaping into the dullness of the night air. The pleasuring naught tightening into the pit of her stomach was bursting with pleasure and burning sensations.
The feeling of pure ecstasy was life changing..

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I woke up late panting with sweating palms and flushed cheeks that turned crimson red with absolute frustration, it was a dream I thought as my hand went towards my phone while the time read 4:05AM in bold writings on my phone. Why was I having such an intimate dream about Luke?

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