adopted by taylor swift

chapter 10

Bella's pov.
Taylor and I have gotten closer and I'm more open to her because I know she wants to help me I've been clean for the past 3 days and I'm really proud of myself, Taylor has not  seen my cuts and I'm trying to keep it that way. Taylor is honestly so warm and sweet and I love her hugs they make my bad dreams or anything that bugs me go away.

But through all of this Taylor has gotten super clingy but I know she means well so I let her be with me, and I'm eating more now but just small portions til I can work my way up to bigger ones. I think this isn't going to be so bad after all.

Taylor's pov.
Bella and I are close now and I'm so proud of my girl, we have been watching movies and just enjoying each other's company but I know she's hiding something, because whenever it's hot outside she wears long sleeves and she always has them on, yesterday I turned the heater up just to see if she would still keep it on and she did I'm so worried about her, so today I decided to have her show me her arms. As a mother now I need to make sure my daughter is okay and that she is safe.

I just wish she could tell me what she feels more often. I honestly hate seeing her sad or upset because she doesn't deserve that she deserves to loved and happy and God has put her in my life for a good reason. For me to take good care of her ever though she isn't my biological daughter I love her just the same no difference and I just need to make sure she isn't harming herself again but I could not live with myself if one day she try's to commit suicide and actually dies, I almost lost her once and I am not going to lose her again

after a few minutes if thinking I called her to come downstairs "Bella could you come here for a minute" as soon I called her she rushed downstairs and had a worried look on her face "yes Taylor?" I told her to take a seat and I sat down next to her "Bella I'm gonna need you to show me your arms" she looked at me in confusion "why?" I sighed "because I want to make sure you're okay and that you are not doing anything to yourself again, it's hard for me to see you like this" she pulled up her sleeves and there they were just what I didn't want to see, her cuts some looked old some looked new I was so upset I took her wrist and just kissed it, because we all know as kids sometimes we would tell our mom to kiss our boo boo's making it feel better.

Well I just wanted her to know how much I love her, I looked up to see her in tears, and I was in tears too, I quickly wrapped her in a hug and I didn't want to let her go. I Love her too much to have her be destroying herself, she's my daughter and she will always my top priority "oh Bella, why honey?" we pulled away and she wiped her tears "because Taylor it's too hard for me to this anymore I don't like being alone and that nightmare I had has me thinking maybe it wasn't just a dream maybe it was showing me what might happen someday Taylor and I can't lose you, you're all I have left Taylor" she was bawling I can't believe she would think I would dare to leave her.

Doesn't she get it? she is my whole world, the love of my life and I would never even think about leaving her for one second and even if I do have a kid of my own I don't think I could have the same love as I have for Bella for that kid "Bella, don't even think that at all, I would never ever leave you, you're the light it my life and without you I would be nothing I wouldn't be Taylor I would just be broken absolutely broke I can't imagine my world without a special girl like you, and Harry likes you Bella a lot he wouldn't wanna take your place and even if her tried he couldn't" oh great now I'm bawling, soon I lead her upstairs to my room since it was pretty late us both in tears I laid her down on my bed and got in next to her "you're staying with me tonight because I don't want anything to happen to you, and if you have another bad dream I want to be here when you wake up so that you don't have to feel alone okay babe?" she nodded still crying, I pulled her close to me and hugged her she buried her head in my chest and we just fell asleep like that