Cimorelli and Lauren's Problem

nightmares

*2009*

lauren's pov.

I woke up from another nightmare and could feel my body shaking and sweating. I have nightmares often.  The nightmares are usually the same.  I look at the time and the clock reads 3:28.

Great its too early.  I try to go back to sleep but i'm too scared.  I get out of bed and go over to Lisa's.

"Lisa?" I shake her."Lisa?"

"Lauren go to bed" she mumbles and rolls over.

"But I can't, i'm scared" I tell her.

"Just try" she waves for me to leave.

I go lay in bed with my eyes wide open.  After just laying in my bed for a while I look at the clock again. It says 4:02.  Darn no one will be awake for a while.  I look around the room.  It's still really dark.  Too dark to see if something or someone is in my room.  It makes me paranoid.  I stare straight up, too scared to look around and pull the covers up to my chin. 

I don't know how long it takes but I finally fall asleep again.  

*dream*

I'm walking around outside a Target.  It's kind of dark outside but not completely.  Suddenly I hear two bangs in a row. Like gun shots.  There's no one around me.  Then a figure runs out of the Target and looks to his left then his right, i'm to his right.  When the figure gets closer I can tell it's not a boy but a girl.  She raises her gun and shoots, but misses.  She grabs me and looks me dead in the eye.  It is Rachel.  Rachel pushes me around and insults me.  Every time I tried to speak she slaps me.  

But this dream was a little different from the rest.  It's always about Rachel though.

After what felt like forever she finally leaves.  I was emotionally and physically hurt.  

My dream switches so I was in a small room.  There are no doors, no windows, no furniture, only me and her.  Rachel comes over and asks me a question, it is her question game.  Every time I answer I get slapped for "speaking up to her"  and every time I didn't answer she punch me in the stomach for not answering her.  It must have been what felt like 20 minutes of this game when I fall to the floor.

"Get up!" she yells at me, kicking me.

I try to push myself up but fall back down.

"Get up I said!" she yells over and over again, kicking me each time.  

Finally she picks me up and throws me against the wall, for a girl only a little bigger than me she is really strong.  She then pulls out her special pocket knife.

"You haven't been listening very well, you need to learn a lesson." she tells me.

She picks a spot on my body, my stomach, and carves a line into it. I can see scars all over my body, many finding a spot on my stomach.

*end of dream*

When I wake up I am screaming. "Lauren, stop" Lisa throws her pillow at me. I stop screaming and start to cry.

"Lauren why are you crying?" Dani asks.

I don't answer. She and Lisa come over and sit on my bed with me.  I lean into Lisa and she puts her arms around me. "Shh, calm down" Lisa comforts me.

"I... I... ca-can't" I manage to say in between sobs. 

It takes a while, but they eventually calm me down.

I get up and head to the bathroom.  I turn the shower on and look at myself in the mirror. I rolled my sleeve up and see some old scars from Rachel.  I looked at my stomach and legs, they are there too, like in the dream. But luckily there are no new ones since I haven't seen her in a while.

I get in the shower when it is warm and spend a good 30 minutes under the water.  When I get out I put on some clothes that cover up my scars.

I go downstairs to eat breakfast and find Christina, Katherine, Lisa and Mom in the kitchen.

"Hey honey" Mom kisses me on the head and I hug her in return.

I sit down at the table with my older sisters and eat a bowl of cereal.

"Lauren you look terrible, did you sleep at all?" Katherine asks me.

"She had a nightmare again" Lisa answers for me.

I look down at my hands to avoid their eyes, "I'm sorry"

"Why are you sorry?" Christina asks.

"Just because" I told her

"Why do you have so many nightmares anyway?" Lisa asks, "I mean that was the fourth time in the past six days.

"I dont know" I tell her, which is a lie.  I have nightmares because of one girl named Rachel.

"What are they about?" Christina looks at me.

"Stuff" I say and continue eating.  I don't want them to know about her because it is embarrassing.

I feel someone grab my shoulders from behind me and scream.

"Woah, sorry Lauren" Amy says. She and dani sat down too.

"Geez you're really still scared aren't you?" Dani asks.

"Im sorry I didnt mean to scream" I apologize

"Its okay...?" Dani seems confused as to why i'm apologizing

I bury my head in my arms and feel a hand rub my back. 

Why did she pick me to bully? why? I wonder.