Jet Black Heart - muke - COMPLETED

-seven-

'Hello.
I guess this means that I'm almost completely sure, right?

I didn't really ever think I'd be one for notes but maybe that's one of the many things that have changed over time.

This wasn't anyone's fault, I was kind of always not wanting to live.

I had people to take care of- things to get on with- I didn't have time to help myself.

I can't date this letter because I don't know exactly when I'm gonna do it. I'll figure that out later, I guess...
Bye.'

Luke looked up at michael, his face pale when he saw Michaels watery eyes.

"H-how did you get this?"

"You left it here," Michael said, hugging himself and dropping his eyes to the floor.

Luke's hands started to shake and he couldn't speak. He couldn't believe he'd been so careless.

"Mike I-"

"W-why didn't you say?" Michael asked in a small, broken voice.

"What?" Luke asked.

"Why d-don't you tell me w-what you f-feel?" Michaels eyes started to water all over again.

"Because..." Luke tried to hold himself together.

"Because why?" Michael asked. "Just t-tell me!"

"Fucking fine, you want to know?!" Luke screamed.

Michaels eyes widened and he jumped at the loud noise.

"I can't be sad, I can't! I have to be here for you when you feel like shit or when you want to hurt yourself. I'm not strong enough for the both of us and I fucking love You more than I love myself."

Michael stared at him and waited for him to continue.

"There's so much, so fucking much you don't know. You hate yourself because I won't sleep with you or do anything like that? Well, I hate myself for it too! I feel like an idiot!"

"W-why can't you?" Michael squeaked. "You never tell me, you just leave."

"Because you wouldn't understand."

Michaels eyebrows scrunched together. "I... Could try."

"Yeah, try." Luke scoffed.

Michael wiped his tears. "L-Lukey please don't be like this, I want to help."

"Nothing can help me now! It's already done."

Michael stepped forwards and clasped their fingers together, trying to stop Luke's shaking.

"It's n-never too late."

Luke looked into Michaels eyes and he swore he could feel himself calm a little more.

Then it all went downhill.

"N-no." He pushed Michael away as he felt the room get smaller and smaller.

Michael looked at Luke with a broken heart. "L-Lukey-"

"No!" He screamed and tripped over, banging his head on Michaels bedside table.

"Luke!" Michael yelped and rushed over.
He wiped his thumbs under Luke's eyes to get rid of the tears and gasped as concealer rubbed off onto his hands, revealing the dark purple colour under Luke's eyes.

Luke looked up at him sadly, still crying.

"I-it's okay," Michael cried. "I'll l-look after you L-Luke,"

Luke smiled through tears but shook his head. "You don't have to do anything for me."

Michael hugged Luke tightly. "D-don't be like this, please."

"Our relationship is never gonna be what you need baby," Luke sniffled. "That's not your fault, it's mine."

Michael shook his head and clung to Luke. "I'm not leaving."

"I'm disgusting." Luke muttered.

Michael wiped away some tears and ran downstairs to get an ice pack and a cloth. When he came back he sat Luke up against the bed and pressed the ice to his head.

"I-is this why you didn't want to leave me alone?" Luke asked quietly.

Michael nodded.

"I don't want you to hide anymore." Michael felt like crying again.

"I have to," Luke stroked Michaels cheek. "You're more important than me."

Michael pressed a kiss to Luke's lips and started to sob. "P-please d-don't l-l-leave!"

"Mikey I-"

"No you can't! You can't leave, I love you too much you deserve to be happy, you-"

"Michael!"

Michael stopped talking and sniffled.

"I won't leave baby." 

Michael sucked in a breath. "Really?"

Luke nodded. "You're my world. Okay?"

Michaels face was full of warm tears as he looked down.

Luke placed his finger on Michaels chin and tilted his face up.

"Don't cry."

Michael wiped his eyes and took in Luke's face. Smudged concealer under his eyes, messy hair, tired eyes. He was an idiot.

"I l-love you." Michael squeezed Luke's hand.

"And I love you." Luke squeezed back.

Michael pulled Luke up and to the bed, laying down next to him.

"I still have homewor-"

"Stay." Michael croaked.

Luke watched Michaels pleading glossy emerald eyes.

"Okay baby boy," he kissed Michaels forehead as he drifted off to sleep. "Okay."

OH THAT EMOTION.

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