Sienna's P.O.V.
Things have been awkward. So awkward it didn't seem awkward. It had been really weird. A few days had past. They played shows every night. Same old, same old. Same schedual, same routine, every hour evey day, except this time, no one would talk to anyone. It's like we were all avoiding eachother. Riley seems a bit more normal now and less tense since after i had said what i said said in the elevator......but he still wasn't back to his usual spastic happy squirrl like self.
This was the last night of tour. I was kind of happy that it was all ending.....that it would all be over. But sometimes i jut wish it wouldn't end. I wanted things to be normal between everyone. Just look where i am at now. The boys are inside the large Arena at there sold out show performing there hearts out on the last day of there world tour......and me.....i'm not there....i haven't been there.....at all. ever since everything has happened, i haven't had the strength to go to a show. I just didn't feel right there. And i always got swarmed by fans and questions and i just never felt like i fit in. I felt like the fans didn't accept me so i kind of just quit going. It's kind of pointless being here with them still. I don't even know how i'm getting home. I don't even have a real home. I had a home but it will never be the same.
The tears were falling down my face as i just sat in the cold night air on the very top of our tall hotel building looking out at all of NYC. The night was lit with all the city lights. It was my first time here but i didn't even care. i just wanted to leave. I wanted all my past to be erassed. I even want me to be erassed. I wish i was never born. I stood up and walked on my bare fit which were slightly a light shade of blue since i was so cold. i was wearing my flowy white dress that Riley had boughten for me that one time in Anaheim. It felt good wearing it. Atleast the memory of that day. I walked over to the edge. The edge was surrounded by a glass railing. I grabbed the glass which was freesing and looked over the edge. The cars rushing and the honking from down below rushed though my mind and thoughts. Over 100 stories high in the air. I couldn't even comprehend it.
The world just stopped. I couldn't even handle what was coming through my mind, what i was thinking about. I leaned over more to get a better look. My waist about half over. I just was frozen there looking down. I could see my breath as i was breathing. I soon felt a presence behind me. I don't know how but i did. I could hear my mom. I could almost clearly hear her sweet & soft voice. I heard her singing to me. She was singing to me a lullaby, that she always used to sing me to sleep with when i was a little girl. and i could almost feel the warmth and smell the scent of my father. I couldn't even handle it. I stood up and turned around and slid down to the floor, my back against the glass. I had no one. Everyone i has loved in my life was lost. I mean some were here but they don't even talk to me or eachother.
And suddenly my mothers voice changed....it changed into a faint visper of a guys voice that was faint and raspy due to the freezing cold dry night.
Baby in a heart beat
i wil take you with me
i just want to get to know you
you're throwing me off beat
so i can't breath
i just want to get to show you
if we are falling apart
i will fight for your heart
i could be your sheild
i'll fight on the feild
baby when life get's colder
each time a line was said the soft voice inched closer. It was soon right in front of me. I lifted up my head from between my legs and looked up to see a handsom young man wearing black pants, a blue plaid shirt and a black formal dress jacket. He put out his hand and helped me up. We were standing face to face infront of eachother in the dark mid night of New York city on top of a tall building in the freezing cold. The boy took his jacket off andoffered it to me and helped me slip it on. It was a bit big but very wam. I stood there in a trance as i was lost in the beautiful brown eyes. Somehow we leaned closer and i didn't even notice our forheads were touching.
Next thing i knew my eyes were shut and our lips were together in time. And once we pulled back the precious voice sang....
I will be your Soldier
THE END
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