Can't Change || Larry

0.11

Word Number : 479
Published : December 3, 2015

(Has anyone cried while reading any of these chapters? If so which one?)

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March 7, 2016 3:55am

Louis doesn't answer him.

He stays quiet like he's stayed the whole time before. He can see Harry sigh as he cries quietly from the corner of his eye, but he stays still.

"I know I fucked up Lou, and I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I didn't pay enough attention to notice you were hurting this much," and hold on just a minute.

"You did notice." He cuts the curly haired lad off. "You noticed perfectly that I was acting 'fucking depressed'. You noticed, you just didn't know how fucking depressed I really was." Harry closes his eyes and bows his head.

"And I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry I didn't pay attention and I didn't ask about how you were feeling and what was happening to make you seem so down. I'm sorry I was out with friends instead of at home with you. I'm sorry baby."

"That's the problem Harry." Louis told him tiredly. "The problem is that sorry doesn't fix anything. It doesn't fix that you prefer being out with your friends because I'm so depressed that you don't want to be with me. And it doesn't fix the fact that you're going to leave." He cried out. "Sorry doesn't fix shit! It's just a patch you'll try to sow on but sooner or later I'll pull the threads off and it'll come off. It's just temporary and it doesn't fix that you left!" He's still not looking at him, but he's sat up now instead of being lied down. "Because that's it, you'll end up leaving. I'm not worth enough to reassure myself even just a bit that you'll stay." He repeats what he'd told Niall. "I'm sick of myself. I don't want to be with myself, I don't want to be myself. And I'm sorry I'm not enough, I'm sorry I'm fucking depressed and you don't know what to say and do around me, I'm sorry Harry!"

Harry immediately shakes his head rapidly as he crawls into the bed closer to Louis. "No, no no no no, don't say that baby, no. You're perfectly alright. You're my world and my stars and my galaxies and anything else you want to be. I love you, and I'm not going anywhere. I swear I'm not, I'm not leaving ever again. Never." He catches the smaller man into an embrace and holds him tighter as he tries to get away. "I'm yours forever and ever. Remember? Like I said after X Factor, yea?" He holds on that much tighter when Louis nods and buries himself into his hold.

They both cry as they say the words together. "Forever, even when the world is trying to bring us apart, I'll always be there no matter what, for eternity and then another eternity after that one, nothing and no one can come between you and I."