Secret Love

__Things that imma say to make you mine__

Thanking her friends Lydia grabbed Parrish's hand and dragged him outside where they would talk. Once they were outside Lydia started to yell at Parrish for his brutality in there. "Look Jordan I already went through one controlling asshole of a boyfriend and I don't and wont settle for another one. So if thats what your going to be about I'd rather us end it here." At that Jordan looked at her as if she had gone completely insane and with a panicked expression. "Lydia, I am so sorry please I will never do that again. You know that I am never like that. I just felt extremely jealous. Look I know thats no excuse towards my behavior its just I feel like your slipping away from me and I am worried I am going to lose you. Ever since you helped me figure out what I am and got out of Eichen house I feel we've been steering into a friendship zone and I know thats not what I want. You've intrigued me since the beginning Lydia. I know its wrong since you are younger then me but you've always been so mature since I met you that I couldn't help feel drawn to you. Please tell me what you've been hiding from me. I feel like I deserve to know Lydia. I still really do want to move in with you and I hope you still do because if this really is the end I might just have to leave. I don't think I'll be able to be here so close to you without your love if I am being completely honest."

Lydia looked at him with a blank expression since she didn't know what to say. She knew Parrish was a good guy and he would never hurt her. Yet he was right she was steering them into a friend zone because she already found love and sadly it wasn't with the hell hound. This was the perfect moment to break it off and come clean about everything. However it wasnt the time nor place to do it. He had said it himself. He would leave and thats what she was afraid of. Thats why she responded to him, "I know you wouldn't Jordan and your right I have been hiding something as well as steering us to become friends for a reason." Lydia knew it was time to tell him this small information. Parrish looked Lydia in the eye and boldly told her to tell him the truth then. "The truth is your the only one who can defeat la bete and I hadn't told you before because I didn't know how to tell you. Im afraid you'll leave because of me and
whatever happens will be my fault. Its obvious I am drawn to you also Parrish but everyone close to me dies. Thats another reason Ive been pulling away I can't lose you."

So Lydia might have not told him the truth truth as to why she didn't want to move with him she even steered clear from that subject. Sure she told him the truth about him being the only one to defeat la bete which was a good idea. She also told him the truth of her fear of leaving them to a doom because of her. A doom that would hurt many innocent people. She also didn't lie on the aspect of being drawn to him but it wasn't what he would obviously think. They were drawn by their powers nothing more nothing less. She found the bodies and he cleaned them up. That was all but she couldn't tell him that. She knew they could be good friends but nothing more. The last thing Lydia exposed was her fear of losing those closest to her. Lydia had already lost Jackson, Aiden, Danny, Allison,Isaac, hell even Derek. She didn't need more people gone in her life. Yes, four of those people were not dead but they left her due to supernatural reasons and being close to death at one point.

Lydia could never deny she was always afraid of losing Stiles but she knew he was taken care of. Malia would protect him and Scott no doubt would too. Stiles was a guy with no super powers but he stayed alive and that counted for something in the world they lived. He would be fine. Well he better because she would never be able to survive without him. Tuning back to what Parrish was saying she heard, "...Lydia you wont lose me okay. I am here to stay and I understand your fears now. But your stuck with me and you'll see I'll defeat la bete for us to be able to live peacefully. Maybe after everything works out we can leave beacon hills for good. I can transfer from here and you can study somewhere else. I mean we can live here for a few months while we look at other places but we'll be together and thats all that matters right." All Lydia could think was 'have you lost your frickin mind' but she smiled and said she would have to think about it before she made a mistake. Parrish nodded and said he had to go because it wasn't a good idea for him to be at a highschool party that had alcohol when he was a deputy. He also told her he would see her at midnight at there spot.