The Other Girl

as if nothing happened

"Hey babes, hope you're on your way to my place"

I just couldn't. I'm still overcome by guilt.

I didn't bother to reply.

I was overwhelmed by my developing feelings for Pascal, only after one time of having sex with him.

He said it to me, to my face after we did it, "Lilly, its just sex "

Sex
Sex
Sex

I couldn't get the word out of my head, it replayed itself over and over as if it were part of my wiring now.

The sad thing is, Pascal is very good at sex...and I had just turned him down.

I could not pretend if nothing happened, I just couldn't.

So after blatently ignoring him, I got in my car and drove to his house.
I picked up my phone and dialed his number.
"I'm parked outside your house, can we talk?"

.........

"Urh, I'm sure we can, I'll be right out"

"Hey Lills , what's up? You finally come to your senses and decided you want to embrace me?"

"No, I'm here to talk...."

"Talk?" Pascal sounded confused, as if he'd never heard the word talk before.

I gave him a smirk and began to explain myself to him

"I know.....uh, I know that we've only slept together once, but there's something you just don't know about me, I've had a crush on you for about six months and I just........I just don't want to develop feelings for you as you have distinct feelings for Cheyennes, besides, I feel as if it'd be better this way, we can pretend that it never happened, that you never enticed me, I never pleasured you, and nor did I develop feelings for you, so this is my goodbye"

I reached out to give Pascal a hug but as I did so, he stopped me "pretend...as if it never happened!!?" He sounded alarmed, also a bit heart broken.

"I'm sorry Pascal , I just....I cannot see you this way anymore...."

I got into my car and drove away.

Within the space of two day, two days, two girls had left Pascal.

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When I got home, my phone had six missed calls from Pascal and two voice notes.

I didn't bother to listen to them.
The sound of his voice just makes my body tremble, I could listen to his voice in awe for hours, but today is not the day to drown out all sounds except his voice.

Today is the day to drown him out of my life. To forget him.

To forget everything him and I had done.
I'll look at him normally, as if it never happened.