Letters You Will Never Read

Just Ranting

HOW CAN SHE BE SO JUDGMENTAL OF SOMEONE SHE DOESN'T KNOW??

And for the record, you have nice teeth, you don't look like a crack addict, you aren't ugly. And even if I didn't know your true personality and you did look like that, I would never judge you for it. Only an idiot can hate someone they don't know.

The one person I hate I know.

People often try to convince the haters that there's a good side to everyone. At least, a better side. Maybe. I know my mom's better side, and so does she, and it doesn't change a thing. What use is your 'better side' when you are yelling at someone? When you're refusing to let them have their friends over until they lose their 'holiday pounds'? What use is a better side that only shows up when you aren't even being yourself?

She told me she loved me once, when she was convincing me to stay at the babysitter's house. And however much she meant it, the hatred didn't go away. I know her good and her bad: I know her and my hatred is not grounded in a first impression. It's in her soul. And the only things she cares about are superficial; in the long run, she'll hate herself as well if she doesn't already. The mirror will be her worst enemy.

She still has no idea how much Dad has done for her. And I should just shut up now. And also I love you.