Smoke Colored Bench

R I V E R O F T E A R S

The river of tears you cry
As you wipe your eye
Can't erase the things you said to me
The lies your lips form
Is the reason
Im drowning tonight
The gold strings
Holding you up
Are the emotions
You seem to lack
When you tell me you care
Because you're the carver of my heart
You carve all those corners
And dark spots
And all I want is for you to leave
My heart
But you won't
For You're always there by my side
Spewing those lies
As if you're trying to make
Your mistake disappear
Me
Make me disappear
For the man
You met up with in the hotel room
With sheets that you're both buried beneath
Wasn't supposed to have
Any after effects
Like the failed birth control
Hidden under your bed
Only a night of pleasure
All the memories
All the lies
Are like needles focused in on my head
Poking my emotions
To see how far I can go
Without breaking
Without falling apart
Only to notice I'm already broken
So the water I call tears
Never came
Never made it past my eye
For they drowned
In the darkness of my soul
But the water in this tub
Is all the tears I need
To surround my body
A reminder of all the tears
I once cried
So they fill my lungs
Are you happy yet?
They hold my breath captive
For the water surrounding me
Is still
A reminder of the emotions I once had
But I wasted them on you
So I won't waste this water
I will let it
Hold my breath
Fill my lungs
Kill my brain
For my heart has died
So I ask
Are happy now
That your mistake is gone?

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▼ M E A N I N G ▼

River of Tears is about a person (boy or girl) who wasn't supposed to be born. Her mother never wanted her and she couldnt live with that. So the girl/boy committed suicide, thinking it would relive her/his mother of the burden of living with a mistake. Hoped you enjoyed!

"When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me" - The Neighbourhood / / Afraid

➳ Leah Skye