Smoke Colored Bench

A N G E R

The anger

Bubbling up

Causing thoughts

The devil would be ashamed to say

Yet here I am gears turning

Frustration building

From the pathetic excuses made

To make me not notice

All the wrongs

She made

But all the wrongs I did

Because Im wrong

Always wrong

I've never done anything right

Even if you ask

For Im just another

Body amongst a thousand

Other ones

That have created a difference

That are better than me

Im comparable

I know

Im not perfect

I accept that

But you don't

Im always in front of your claws

The ones the cradled me to sleep

The ones I go to for help

But now I don't speak

I just listen to you yell

Your mane shifting

Flowing with the hate each words bring

Your mouth spitting out accusations

Im used to

Yelling

Complaining

Yet somehow

Im wrong

That I shouldn't say the truth

For its an excuse

My throat has been chocked

words stuck in my

Sore throat

For I do everything

Yet you do something

Every once in a blue moon

Then suddenly I don't care

When have you

When was the last time

You came in the house

And greeted your child with joy

Me with joy

When was the last time you said

I love you

With lasting syllables

With meaning

When was the last time

The clock could tick

And we would hear it

Instead of your voice

A constant threat

Bubbling through your teeth

Like the lies

You spit out every single day

Where it isn't midnight

When everyone's asleep

When you're asleep

Now why do I have to deal

With everything

I have to deal with the accusations

I have have to deal

With the knife

In the corner

Taunting me

Then you wonder

Where did she go?

She's gone

Right down the drain

Next to your unused love

Next to the memories

That will never happen again

So now that my throat is free

From the chain linked around

My neck

That you put there

When was the last time you brushed your teeth

Of the lies staining each tooth

The gook held captive in between

Like the hatred branded into my memories

When was the last time you told me

That you cared

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▼ M E A N I N G ▼

A girl (In my mind she's a girl) is angry that her mother, as an only child, blames her for all her mothers own mistakes. Her mother never says she cares and that she loves her, only stops to yell at her, that she and everything she does is a mistake. Hope you all enjoyed!

➳ Leah Skye