Come Back To me ~Romeo Beckham Fanfic~

If it still hurts,pain is relevant.

The light hurts. Actually my whole body hurts. I can barely open my eyes. But through the haze I can see mom crying.
Where the fuck am I?
Then it comes crashing back.
The flashlight, the screeching, she screaming and then fireworks of metals exploding.
Sweet taste of blood in ny mouth. A soft whimper begging me to stay with her.
My mom is speaking something and I can barely make out from the outline of her lips.
I try to call her name.
But then a sharp pain eludes me.
I raise my fingers. She does not notice.
Mom look at my hands.
She thinks I am dead. MOM LOOK AT MY FINGERS.
She noticed. She is screaming clutching my fingers.
I feel like I am drowning. My body is going numb. " Romeo stay with me" I hear her again. Then blackness engulfed me.
---------------------------------------------------
I am sitting on the bed, Brooklyn supporting my back.
Everybody is sitting in the room. Mom looks tired but relieved.
But I can't see her.
"Mom where is Carmen?"
Hush fell.Brooklyn went stiff.
No....this is not happening..
"Romeo she is gon..."
Again the flashlights,the screaming..
My vision dimmed and for the millionth time, there is nothing to hold on as I slipped into darkness again.
---------------------------------------------------
"Ma'am your son suffered head injuries when he took the impact. Any flash photography or light thrown suddenly on his face will trigger his blackouts. She will constantly haunt him."
"But she is not dead."
I looked up. What? She is alive.Carmen is alive.
"She does not have her memory ma'am."
My mom stiffened and I stopped.breathing.
" Your son saved her life but he will always be haunted by her. Losing her will kill him.It is too young for his age but she will be his bright place."
I want to say, doctor she does not remember me.
Doc, she is gone ..away from me.
Away from all that we shared.
But I can't.
---------------------------------------------------
"Romeo, wake up..please"
I opened my eyes to see her calling someone furiously on her phone.
Damn I blacked out.
I grabbed her hand and gently cut the phone.
She looked at me with her tear streaked face.
"What were you thinking?"
She screamed. I held her shoulders,weak from my phase.
"Hey I am fine..Carmen I am fine"
I tried to calm her down but the tears didn't stop coming.
She buried her head in my chest and cried.
It is been so long.
I kissed her head.
The rain had stopped and their was a deadly silence around.
" Carmen, look at me.."
She sniffed and looked up.
She looked fucking cute.
She whispered," You were the one right?"
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Of course he was the one.
The person who was with you saved your life.
I didn't have to call dad and ask who was the person.
I didn't have to ask how did he do? Did he suffer?
Romeo was speaking continuously when he passed out.
His eyes are soft now. His arms are still around me.
"Romeo say something please." I whimpered.
His fingers brushed my chin.
"Yeah..we were together that night."
If guilt could kill I would have died thousand times over.
I stiffled a cry escaping my mouth.
"Carmen it's gone now. I....I don't want to you lea.."
He didn't continue. He didn't have to.
Jake or Romeo that is my choice he meant to say.
How is it that I keep hurting the people who cared about me the most?
He was there. Romeo was always there even when I didn't remember anything. And Jake.
He was that one who waited all these years for me no matter what the truth is.
I had never been this emotionally wrecked in my life before.
Romeo turned his hands leaving mine..
Suddenly I felt cold as his hsnds left.
He started the car.
The silence was deafening. I had not reassured him.
I had not said that I will always be with him.
I had not said a million words I had to say.
But I could not bring myself to say it.
He turned on the music.
Either to ignore me or to calm himself. I looked outside feeling myself already falling in a chasm I am not sure I will be able to come out of.
Words.
How little do they mean,
when they are a little too late.
Ed's voice rang out in the car.
"All I know is we said hello and your eyes look like coming home.
All I know is a simple name
everything has changed.."
I didn't have to look at the side to see whether he looked at me.
He did.