Come Back To me ~Romeo Beckham Fanfic~

After the storm

Laughing. Running. His face so clear his eyes calling me. The eyes I had fallen in love with but never.told anyone. Not even my best friend.
He holds my hand and pulls me closer his eyes searing into mine.
I bury my head in his chest. That familiar smell which comforts me secretly.
I loved him in the shadows ,in the dark places ,in the insanity we share.
I opened my eyes. Romeo was still holding me. My flashbacks were getting shorter and clearer.
I pulled back. It was a slow drizzle now.
We didn't speak. We didn't have to.
His fingers slipped down to my wrist and entwined with mine.
"You are wet"
"Well you are too." I said pointing out the obvious fact.
He bit his lips shaking his hair.
I turned away laughing.
His sweatshirt was probably the only thing keeping me from having a shivering fit. He threw his arms around me pulling me closer.
I rested my head on his shoulders.
This was the guy to whom I owe my life, the one to whom I have a feeling I will be falling every time I needed.
We walked slowly, two teenagers in the rain enjoying the rain and in love according to passers by.
Only if they knew the tangled knots in our head.
I hope it is unraveling.
But I don't know what goes on in that beautiful head. I don't what is he thinking about when his warm eyes become cold and cut off.
I don't know what he is feeling when his smile comes for a moment and then vanishes.
I look at him noticing his features. Strong cheekbones, warm eyes, upturned nose. He looked at me, his thumb tracing circles on my hand.
I leaned up and kissed him on his jawline.
His usually guarded eyes looked thrown off and broken.
I don't understand him and myself but I wish I could for once.
His grip tightened as we reached the gate.
People were standing there.
Paparazzi.
A flash happened.
He froze.
Fuck.
I turned to him praying as I did. His eyes had turned wild.
Ma'am, flashes will trigger back the memory to him.....
.....haunt him..
...nervous disorder..
..fatal..
That night in the car when he had blacked out.
I screamed telling them to stop the flashes. Romeo was covering his face now shaking violently.
Things happened simultaneously.
A car rolled up.
I heard Victoria screaming.
Romeo holding my hand and pulling me closer. Tears were streaming down his face.
I hugged him back wishing everything will stop.
My ears were ringing.
He whispered.
The blackness was coming again.
"Stay with me Carmen"
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Fuck my head hurt.
I looked up to see familiar scribbling on the wall.
Romeo's room.
It was pitch black outside.
Victoria and my mom were sitting on the couch.
They saw me and immediately got up.
"Oh my god Carmen"
Victoria touched my forehead. I was burning.
My mom covered my hands warming them.
"Hey"
My voice was gone.
"We were so scared honey"
I smiled. I turned expecting him to materialize from somewhere.
"He has gone to the hospital for check up"
I stopped breathing.
No this is not happening.
"Hey hey..I am sure he is fine." Victoria kissed me on my head consoling.
I nodded, the panic feeling rising.
God you can't be this unfair.
They got up.
"We will give you sometime okay?"
I nodded again. I didn't have the strength to speak.
They walked out shutting the door.
I shut my eyes searching for the one I can't see, listening for the one I can't hear.
My phone beeped.
I opened my eyes.
I slowly took it typing my password. The screen came to life.
I reduced the brightness. Then looked at the message.
I stared at it for 5 mins before opening it,my heart pounding.
Please tell me you are alright.
-R.B.
I smiled through the haze of tears.
CB-R u not in the hospital? Ditcher.
RB- yeah..n the doc is a creepy lady who keeps telling me how lucky i am.
I laughed quietly.
My Romeo,ever so mad.
CB- shut up n b thankful. I was so scared.
RB- fucking paps. Btw I followed u on insta
What?? He is fucking kidding with me.
CB- are u screwed??
RB- anyways sleep..mom told u have fever. My fault! I will see u in an hour.
CB- okay! Come soon Beckham.
I shut the phone smiling in the darkness.
Was it always like this? Bestfriends you can never separate?
Lovers? I am not so sure about that.
He had cut off more days in the countdown of his.
I shut my eyes wondering what is it for.
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Jake's pov.

She didn't come today. Must be busy..  God only if she knew how much I need her.
I wish I could give her everything but I can't because I am a mixture of shitty parents and a victim of addictions to the dark world.
But I am human and I know what is love. I want to tell her all of this. Take her in my arms crash everything I have into her.
Back when Beckham was my bestfriend..
God fucking knows how.
We used to say" The drugs in the street ? That we are warned of. What we are not is of the brown eyed masterpiece."
I agreed. And I still agree.
He was never a bad guy never will be. Sometimes I think Carmen deserves him. Perfection meets perfection.
He never does anything wrong.
Always the good guy. And I hate him for that.
The nurse walked in to check my reports.
She had sent a message to the nurse.
"I am sorry. Something came up. I will make up for it tom. I love you Jake."
I smiled sensing the nurse watching me.
"Nurse?"
"Yeah?"
"Is it possible to be addicted to someone so much that you want to become the person she sees in you and not the shitty fuckhead you are?"
She paused for a long time.
"Yes. For you atleast. "
She walked out patting my hand.
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Romeo's pov.
Dad said I am fine. I guessed it.
When she is there, I will be fine always.
My mind rushed back.
Her kiss on my jaw, the way she took in my face, the last 'come soon' msg.
Where are we at this point? I have no fucking clue.
Her madness for Jake. I see it everytime she fucking walks out of the door after I leave for school.
I watch her everytime from the corner as she leaves the house.
I don't follow her. I am not going to do that.
But it kills me.
I know it will kill me when Jake gets discharged and she will go.
It will break me when she will leave for India with nothing between us.
One fucking ocean away, that is where she will be.
Dad parked the car turning to look at me.
"You okay man?"
"No dad..I am not"
Dad put his hands on my shoulder.
"Hey! Give her time. And even if she doesn't come back ...you know what your feelings are"
I smiled.
" Dad, she is different. There are so many things I want her to remember, so many things I want to tell her.... the way she looks at me that itself drives me crazy. I want to give her everything and I want to take everything fron her. Make her mine and no one else."
I looked up to see dad smiling.
"That is exactly how I feel for your mother. Son, you have loved her for 9 years. Don't give up."
"But... when she chooses Jake, I won't stop her...I know that because more than myself I don't want her to cry."
I shut my eyes pushing away that thought.
"Listen to your heart. You can die for her, you know you will always love her. She will find a way back to you."
I nodded and got out.
I need to go check whether she is alright.
I sprinted up the steps and opened the door.
There she was sleeping. I pulled the covers up.
I want to ask you
Is my name somewhere in your dreams?
I want to ask you
How you break my heart in the blink of an eye?
Do you know you are angel who forgot to fly?
Maybe there is nothing in me after midnight that could stop you from walking away.
I traced her features with my fingers.
I  bent down kissing her on her forehead.
Then I crashed on the couch.

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