Decision or Destiny?

Courage?

Hey, u weird birds. (How is there not a bird emoji?! Ah, well. Satan will work. 👹😂) guise, Dont even rely on me updating early. It's always going to be late sorry. Anyways, let's get this little thingy going. Im in class, so if a random part doesn't make sense, im typing what the teacher says instead of doing what shes telling me. Hot Diggity Darn.

Phil's POV :
With Kelsey finally gone, I started to think of all the things me and Dan have done together. Looking at the pictures on the mantel, only to see them faced downward. The only pictures still up, was the one of me alone.

I get up and fix the pictures to where they should be. At the sight of my Daniel, my eyes start to tear up as memories flood my mind. The time we went to Jamaica and Dan had the hobbit hair. The time we first met and hugged while a train started to pull off. I had Martyn take a picture of us that day, knowing me and Dan would be friends forever.

I hated that I didn't tell him the way I felt. Now he's gone and I have no one who I truly trusted.

A memory appeared of the day I started dating Kelsey. The day me and Dan hit 1 million subscribers on DanAndPhilGames. I remembered us sitting on the sofa, seeing Dan staring at me from the corner of my eye. He couldn't know I was trying to make him jealous. I put on a smile and stared at the wall, not even paying attention to the film. Dan looked so sad but I couldn't guess why. He said he had had a headache and went to his room, before I had a chance to follow, his door shut. I thought he didn't want me to be with him although I didn't know why.

The memory changed to the next day, when I woke up on the couch, never going to my bed. Worry hit me as I thought about Dan. I couldn't explain it. I just felt a piege on my heart, something was telling me to check on him. Walking into his room, I saw him balled up on his bed, in a DANburrito. I laughed at myself for the horrible pun but my smile instantly dropped as I saw the tears stained onto his face.

I ran to his side and went to wake him up, wondering what he could be crying about. Before I got to him, he mumbled "I love him..." Anger coursed through me as I was thinking he was talking about PJ or Chris. I grabbed a piece of paper from his desk and wrote "going to Brunch with Kelsey" on it and stuck it to his door.

I shook my head at the memory, realizing it's only going to cause pain. Realizing that that day was the day that I yelled at both PJ and Chris. That was the day I lost their friendship. I never went to brunch with Kelsey, hell I didn't even talk to Kelsey until that Skype call.

The memory of the Skype call came back into my mind. Coming back home and hearing the shower running, I decided now would be a good time to call Kelsey since she wouldn't quit texting me.

Both PJ and Chris told me that Dan wasn't not talking about them. They insisted he was talking about me. But I couldn't believe it. "Why would Dan love me? " was the only thought on my mind all day.

Still in the memory, I grabbed the laptop and lied across my bed. "Phil?"
I smiled at the sound of my name on his lips. "Yea?"
"I just wanted to make sure it was you and not an axe murderer" his voice echoed as he walked through my room. I notice he had nothing but a towel on, which was wrapped around his thin waist. I remember the feeling of my heart skip a beat or two. Wanting to respect his privacy, I looked at his face and noting but. "Dan! If I was an ax murderer, would you come out out of the shower with nothing but a towel on?" His chuckle made my heart break. I will never hear that chuckle again.
He swung his hips slightly, pulled a cheeky smile and said "no. This is only for you."
By then,my heart had almost completely stopped. Does he know how much his words mean to me, even though I knew he was only joking?
"You dork. Go away, I need to Skype Kelsey." I chuckle and waved him off. His smile dropped. "Okay. But after the call, can me and you talk? It's important." I remember my mind going a million places, trying to figure out what we needed to talk about. "Okay, sure. Now leave" I smiled and waved him off again. We never got to talk and I never knew what it was about. But before he left, I saw his towel slip down a little as he stared at the floor. "Oh and Dan! Can u shut the door?" He came back and pulled the door shut, looking rather sad. I needed my privacy so I could break up with Kelsey. The way he let the towel slip down, proved to me that he did care. I was planning on breaking it off with Kelsey and then telling Dan how I felt. How I feel...

The call went to bloody hell though. Whenever I told Kelsey that I needed to talk with her about something, she thought I wanted to say that we were going to make our relationship official. After one date? Official? Really? She got so happy, she said she had to go and tell her friend, Kase. She immediately hung up before I could tell her otherwise.

The memory passed by to one of Dan kissing me but I know that didn't happened. Did it? I tried to remember the memory once more.

It came back to me.

It was dark and Dans head was on my shoulder. There were cold chains around my wrist and my ankles. There was blood but I don't know why. Dans brown hair was matted with it. Was it his blood? Did he get hurt? I'm good at daydreaming but not this good. I could never make up something so out of order, I would never wish this on my bear or anyone for that matter.

The memory continued. "Dan." I heard myself whisper to see no movement from Dan. Fear stuck me and I started yelling his name. Over and over. Eventually Dan looked up and whispered "Phily." He replied in a faint voice as his head dropped back onto my shoulder. I heard myself apologize over and over about being the reason he was here.

He lifted his head back up pressed his lips against mine with all the power he had in him. I kissed him back knowing that this happened. I could never daydream something like this. Something so heart breaking.

Still in the memory, a sound came from across the room and a door opened. Dan pulled away from me and let out a whimper. A shiny light showed a shadow of a person. I couldn't make out who it was,

No. I have to be making this up. I have to be. It couldn't have been my fault that Dan wasn't here. It couldn't. But it was. I saw it myself. I'm the reason he isn't here. I'm the reason his parents and his siblings are going to miss him. It's all my fault.

Back in the memory, I remembered the kiss. How Dan kissed me and stopped me from apologizing. Apologizing about ever dating Kelsey. Why would I do that? Was I trying to confess how I felt about him? Is that why he kissed me?

I listened to the words that scrambled from my mouth in a fast breath. "I'm so sorry, if it wasn't for me ever dating Kelsey, we wouldn't be here. I did it to make you jealous, you know that right, danny?-" his lips crashed against mine. It felt so real I could almost feel his chapped lips on mine.

It all came back to me. Kelsey's secret. Chase. The pill. Seeing Dan in the hospital as Kelsey wheeled me in there, acting like she hadn't held me captive. The pain and fear of seeing Dan get hit by the shovel. I started hyperventilating as I remembered everything. Panic (!) rose in my body and I started shaking uncontrollably. How could I let Kelsey hurt Dan? How could I ever trust her? She's probably with him now. Probably, hurting him now. I couldn't let her do it again. I got the courage and finally went after her. She isn't going to get away with this. I'm going to get Dan back and when I do, i'll tell him how i feel.

A/N: hi, hi. So I'm thinking about ending it here. y'know, let the reader think about the actual ending. Weather Phil's determination will Dan get home safely, or If phil gets captured again. We'll never know. Okay, well if youve read this entire phanfiction, thank you so much for not getting bored halfway thru like i do with most of the books i read. If I forgot to explain soemthing in the ending, just tell me and ill add it in there somewhere.

ily all and remember, you can always messages me if you need anything at all. okay byyyye <3
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