Day 9
I kinda miss Noah. I mean yeah I love Nick and that won't change but I don't know my feelings anymore. I feel like I know what I want but it's locked up in my heart not letting me see who it is I want. Or need. I want Nick. I miss him. His warm gentle hugs. Soft kissable lips. I want Nick. I need Nick.
I walk out my apartment. I've been talking to Austin and he said that the Doctor's think that she is getting worst and only a miracle can help. I just want her to wake up before Christmas. We have to drink hot chocolate spending time with our families. Austin's family flew out here just to see him again because he was so busy a the Recording company that he couldn't come and visit. Once they heard about Becka they gave him days off only up till after Christmas.
I take a walk to the mall. Lights are hung. It smells like pine trees. Then I smell hot chocolate. I follow the smell and walk through the door. "One cup of Hot chocolate coming right up." The boy around 17 says. "Here you go that will be $2.75." I give him the money. "So what's your name?" He flirts. I put a forced fake smile.
"I'm Zoey. I'm 17 years old" I lie.
"Oh really well I'm Kevin." He states. I roll my eyes. "Yeah no. I'm way too old for you. I'm actually 22." (I don't think I ever put their ages in there if I did please tell me!) I walk out and sit down at one of the mini tables. "Hey Zoey." I look up to see Nick. "Hey" I side hug him and he sits down with his drink. "So how you been?" He ask. "Fine I guess."
"Well are you sure?" I nod. "Yeah."
"Hey well I better get going don't want to keep a certain someone waiting. I have to set up a very special present for her." He says. I nod. Her? Is he talking about me? I could have sworn that he winked at me. Maybe it's just my head. He might be talking about someone else. But he has been flirting with me. At least a little.
I shrug it off. Dismissing the idea. I get up and turn bumping into someone. Why is it right after I talk with Nick. Noah is always there to catch me? I almost slip but be wraps his arms around my waist to catch me. You see what I mean!?
"Why is it that we always keep meeting like this." He jokes. I giggle. "You look beautiful by the way." I give a small smile blushing. "Thanks. You don't look to bad yourself." He smiles. We stare at each other. He starts leaning in. "Just tell me if you want me to stop" He says. I swear I almost melted in his arms. He was almost there when I turn and he kissed my cheek sending sparks on the side of my face. What? I have to stop this. I want Nick not Noah.
"Um. How about we go Christmas shopping." I say quickly. He nods as disappointment flashes on his face and leaks in his voice but quickly changes it. I pull away and we start to walk. "So tell me about yourself" I say. He nods. "Well...." He tells me his likes and dislikes. Favorite color. He works at the hospital actually. So that's how he knew about Becka. Cause I know that it wasn't on the news.
His favorite color is blue. He likes music. He likes playing guitar. He doesn't like much sea food. He doesn't like a lot of things. But that doesn't mean he likes that other things. Or whatever he said. I notice his amazing jaw line. His eyes are a striking blue but has tiny streaks of gran in them. His hair is always gel to the right. He has two dimples. When he's nervous he's starts to scratch his neck or play with his hands.
"So Zoey want to go on a date with me?" He scratches his neck. I smile so big and I don't know why. "Sure why not?" I say. He smiles. He takes me home. "I had a good time."
"Me too"
"So I'll pick you up tomorrow at 7?" I nod. He kisses my cheek and was way. The feeling of his lips still linger there. I decided to drive to the hospital. I go to her room and See Austin asleep. I sit in the chair. "Hey Becka"
"You wanna know what happened?" I pretended that she answered. "Well since you asked. Noah asked me out today and I said yes." I smile. "I wish you weren't in this coma. I wanna tell you about how I don't recognize my feelings anymore. I want Nick but then you have Noah and I think I know what I want but my my heart is keeping it from me." I sigh. "I need my best friend. I need my sister back to tell me what to do. I need you Becka come back please" I stay there the rest of the night.
